I've been staring at the screen for about 10 minutes now, and i'm really unsure of what to write. ha. The number of times i've started a blog with that sentence kind of suprises me since in the end I usually have something i'm proud of written.
Something weird that i've always noticed but never talked about is MSN Messenger. Not the program per say but the conversations that occur on it. From what i've seen, people can usually express themselves 50 times better when they don't have to talk directly to someone. Example: My cousin told me yesterday that she had a relationship where the guy broke up with her over msn. And its not just other people, it's me too. Me and my friend Kristina can sometimes talk about things a whole lot easier over messenger mainly because it's more secure. But really if you can't talk about about things in person then what is yout friendship based on. Not to rag on any of my friends, your great people, but it always makes me wonder, if we didn't have messenger would three quarter of friendships out there be as meaningful as they are? hmm, interesting
j-moose
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
For You Klla
This ones for you klla
I'm writing this for a friend, who is reminding me of myself right now. She's going through something very similar that I did. Of course, it's about her "Love life". She fell for a guy that she thought liked her back. She liked the way he made her feel, and the things he said allowed her to become lost in a whirlwind of emotions. I've always felt that when you make a connection like that with someone, your either going to become very close with them, or you'll lose them over a stupid argument. Klla tried to ask the guy out, and unfortunately he said that he was going for someone else, which pretty much sucked for Klla. Tonight, she told me that the guy was trying to flirt with her over msn, and that she still wanted him to make her feel the way he did, but knew that he had hurt her. I told her what I thought, but i'm writing about it on my blog page, because this is somewhat similar to something that happened to me. Or in my mind it seems similar to what happened to me.
When I was in grade 6, i began to like this girl named Meghan. For almost 3 years she was the only thing on my mind, and when I was about to tell her how I felt, she told my best friend that she liked him. That hurt, big time. Luckily for me, my best friend had no interest in her, and I ended up telling her how I felt. It took her a little while to except it, but she came to like me. During our grade 9 year, we sort of became an item. We pretty much just told people we were going out, but really it was just to be able to say we had a significant other. Of course it ended in a bad way, and we stopped talking for a while. At our grade 9 spring formal we ended up sharing a kiss, and it made my night. Of course we didn't elaborate further on it, so we just stayed apart. In grade 10 we started talking to each other again, and towards the end of our grade 10 year we sort of hooked up again. Again, it didn't work, and we ended up not talking for a little while. When grade 11 rolled around we tried to be just friends, and for a while it seemed to work. I started to like another girl, but in the back of my mind I still wanted Meghan. Turns out she was still interested in me. Then something happened that changed how I thought about her. She offered me something that all guys want, including myself. At first I was like any guy, but when I really thought about, its not what I wanted. So I did something i'm ashamed of. I completely blocked her out of my life. I stopped talking to her fully and completely. I hurt he pretty badly, but I knew that if I wanted to meet other girls and try to have other relationships I had to.
Then, something happened. I realized that no matter how much I hated her for offering me this "thing" I still loved her. By this time she had found someone new, and I was left to wallow in my self pity. But you know what people, when I finally apologized to her for the way I acted, the feelings I had for her disappeared. Yeah I was jealous of her new bf for a little while, but in the end I just said fuck it. I realized that even if I wanted to be with her again, it can't and won't happen. I finally moved on with my life. Now i'm trying to meet new people and find someone new for myself. There's a few cute girls at my work, and if I play my cards right, you never know what can happen. Klla, your a great girl with tons to offer to the guys of the world. You've got a great smile, amazing personality and your a good listener. Believe me, when you find the right guy, you'll make him happy. Don't beat yourself up over what could have been, because its not worth it. I know you'll find true love, and so will I. We just have to be patient, and let our lives take their course. I hope this helps just a bit....
J-moose
I'm writing this for a friend, who is reminding me of myself right now. She's going through something very similar that I did. Of course, it's about her "Love life". She fell for a guy that she thought liked her back. She liked the way he made her feel, and the things he said allowed her to become lost in a whirlwind of emotions. I've always felt that when you make a connection like that with someone, your either going to become very close with them, or you'll lose them over a stupid argument. Klla tried to ask the guy out, and unfortunately he said that he was going for someone else, which pretty much sucked for Klla. Tonight, she told me that the guy was trying to flirt with her over msn, and that she still wanted him to make her feel the way he did, but knew that he had hurt her. I told her what I thought, but i'm writing about it on my blog page, because this is somewhat similar to something that happened to me. Or in my mind it seems similar to what happened to me.
When I was in grade 6, i began to like this girl named Meghan. For almost 3 years she was the only thing on my mind, and when I was about to tell her how I felt, she told my best friend that she liked him. That hurt, big time. Luckily for me, my best friend had no interest in her, and I ended up telling her how I felt. It took her a little while to except it, but she came to like me. During our grade 9 year, we sort of became an item. We pretty much just told people we were going out, but really it was just to be able to say we had a significant other. Of course it ended in a bad way, and we stopped talking for a while. At our grade 9 spring formal we ended up sharing a kiss, and it made my night. Of course we didn't elaborate further on it, so we just stayed apart. In grade 10 we started talking to each other again, and towards the end of our grade 10 year we sort of hooked up again. Again, it didn't work, and we ended up not talking for a little while. When grade 11 rolled around we tried to be just friends, and for a while it seemed to work. I started to like another girl, but in the back of my mind I still wanted Meghan. Turns out she was still interested in me. Then something happened that changed how I thought about her. She offered me something that all guys want, including myself. At first I was like any guy, but when I really thought about, its not what I wanted. So I did something i'm ashamed of. I completely blocked her out of my life. I stopped talking to her fully and completely. I hurt he pretty badly, but I knew that if I wanted to meet other girls and try to have other relationships I had to.
Then, something happened. I realized that no matter how much I hated her for offering me this "thing" I still loved her. By this time she had found someone new, and I was left to wallow in my self pity. But you know what people, when I finally apologized to her for the way I acted, the feelings I had for her disappeared. Yeah I was jealous of her new bf for a little while, but in the end I just said fuck it. I realized that even if I wanted to be with her again, it can't and won't happen. I finally moved on with my life. Now i'm trying to meet new people and find someone new for myself. There's a few cute girls at my work, and if I play my cards right, you never know what can happen. Klla, your a great girl with tons to offer to the guys of the world. You've got a great smile, amazing personality and your a good listener. Believe me, when you find the right guy, you'll make him happy. Don't beat yourself up over what could have been, because its not worth it. I know you'll find true love, and so will I. We just have to be patient, and let our lives take their course. I hope this helps just a bit....
J-moose
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