Your Head's In Your Heart Now

So i guess once in a while parents are right, and its a shame that i didn't listen to mine regarding this.

Tonight was my school's winter formal. Yes, most kids usually have fun at this things, but of course, yours truly is the exception. Let me explain my night to you. It started by going out to dinner to jack astors with a few people. .For the entire dinner i had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just felt crappy the entire time and the only thing that made me feel somewhat better is when i went to talk to my two best friends. My burger (yes, i had a hamburger, i don't eat veggies or anything that good for my health. A shame isn't it?) was undercooked and the cheese wasn't even melted on it, so honestly what else could go wrong? When i finally got to the dance i had the Privilidge of meeting Miss K's boyfriend, who i must say was quite the nice guy. I talked to a few times througout the dance and he was really cool. As for the rest of the night i had a pretty crappy time. No it wasn't the music, and usually music is what makes me hate these dances. I think it finally occured to me that when the majority of yourfriends have dates (i don't have a lot of friends so close means around 3 or 4) then where's the fun in dancing with yourself?



To be truthful though the only reason i went was because it's my final highschool year and i figured i should at least make an effort to go to all the dances. In all honesty i think that i had more fun when i went to the ones in grades 9 and 10, mainly because most people didn't have a significant other and i had more friends that i could dance with. The times are changing, and by the looks of it i'm the exception. Not that its a bad thing, i mean, i've always enjoyed my solitude, it's never been an issue with me. I guess if i had wanted to have a good time i would have put more effort into it. You get what you give, and obviously i didn't give enough.....


J-Moose

So It's A Song We Want

So i was visiting another blog i read, and the author, darkaura posted a song, which he wrote himself. It was pretty awesome. So i figured i'd post a song as well. I was originally gonna post a song i wrote on my facebook page, but instead i ended up writing a brand new one.

"The Corner Of Truth And Lies"

And i Was So Afraid of

what this world was doing

I stood in the shadows of

my own regret

And my tears were so cold

i couldn't remember the name

of the world and all its games

they were so.......

So it's really come to this

the world will spin

and i am standing on

the corner of truth and lies

and i'm waiting the day

you realize

i wasn't gonna stay,but

maybe i'll wait a day

it's still the rain that keeps me

at bay.

I look to the stars

and all i see, is the fool i used to be

It's so cold in this old house

the walls are talking and

i can't take it, just one more pill

will make it clear to me

So it's down to one last kiss

and your close you eyes

the worlds still spinning

and i believe that this

is the corner of truth and lies

The world is gone,my life is lost

and sanity has failed

but when i close my eyes

i see the place

where i will always prevail

Thats all for today kids

J-Moose

If I Gave It All Away For One Thing

As some of you may or may not know, i play in my schools band. I'll admit, i'm not that great but i like playing so it doesn't matter. At yesterdays practice, a semi-friend (used to be full friend) started talking to me saying things like "Oh my god, we never see each other any more" "We should really talk more". It's a little upsetting to be hearing things like that because really i had no intention of not talking to this person anymore. You see, last summer when most of you were out having a good time, i was sitting at home bored out of my skull. My so called friends never called me to hang out once, and the one or two times i made the effort to call them, they showed little to no interest in seeing me. I remember i asked one of them if he was interested in coming to a concert with me, sometime in october. His reason for not wanting to come, "I don't know what i'm doing that day". Bullcrap!!! It was july when i asked him, and the concert wasn't until october. Of course you don't know what your doing that day, its not for another 3 months.

How many of you have had something similar happen to you before? You're friends with someone, then 5 minutes later you never rarely talk and you find yourself hanging out with a completely different group of people. It's a sad thing to happen, but i'm pretty sure i'm not the only one who's experienced this before. Hit me with comments, and i'll draft your responses into a new blog......


J-Moose