I knew I'd Be Discussing This Topic Again

A second topic on what you might ask? Love and relationships. I was on missyD's page and she was asking what true love is. I gave a response which in my mind is correct, but i think i'm gonna add a bit more to it.

This is my description of when a boy likes a girl and how he chooses to act upon his feelings, and how the girl (i think) responds:

Boy: His palms are all sweaty, and his beats faster as the moments pass. There she is, the girl of his dreams. She may not be the prettiest or the most popular girl, but his heart can't deny him of his wanting. They've talked before, and the connection is definitely there, but something is holding him back. His nerves always seem to get the best of him, because when he tries to express himself, the words he chooses are never the right ones. But today will be the day. When classes end, he approaches he locker, the words come out perfectly. He studders, of course, but finally manages to ask her out. A date, and a simple one at that. Dinner and a Movie, what could be more classic?

And so the day approaches. The dinner wasn't at some fancy restaurant, but at some place where they could enjoy themselves. He talks to her, discussing school, life, jobs, and their friends. He can't help but look into her eyes, and be lost in them for a few seconds, before realizing he probably looks like a moron doing so. A witty remark and few minutes later, they continue to the theater across the way. He chooses dramedy. Something serious, yet suttle when the moment calls for it. The films not important to him, only the beauty sitting in the seat beside him. His mind is contemplating, his actions. The simple holding of hands, or the arm around her? The answer never reaches his mind, because before he knows it, she's resting her head on his shoulder. He quickly puts his arm around her and smiles triumphantly. The night ends and he takes her home. He doesn't want the night to end, but he knows that it will. They reach her door, and smile at one another. Suddenly, time seems to stop. He leans forward and closes his eyes, hoping she responds. Nothing else matters, except her. And there it is, he finds her. He's waited for so long for this moment and to him, it lasts an eternity. Finally, they part. His face is beat red, as his hers. She leans in and hugs him, whispering softly in his ear "i've been waiting for this"


Girl: For two months he's all thats been on her mind. Her friends always tell her that he's way out of her league, and try to explain how a guy like him works. She ignores it. She knows him better than that. They talk almost everyday, and have a few classes together. To her, he seems like the perfect guy, sweet, charming and cute. What more could she ask for? She begins to put her books into her bag, and begins to relax after a long day. She looks over and see's him approaching. Her mind tells her that he's probably gonna ask about some homework, but her heart wishes for something else. He asks what she's been waiting for, and gladly agrees.

Dinner and a movie, what a perfect first date. She spends hours picking out the perfect outfit, choosing the right makeup, and getting her hair just the way she likes it. She waits and eventually he shows up. They reach their first destination, a quiet little dinner. They talk and she loves hearing his voice. Her eyes gaze into his, and she realizes that he's looking directly into hers. He quickly starts talking and she intently listens. They finish dinner and head over the the movies. A dramedy. Perfect. Her oppurtunity to flirt approaches. The movie starts and as interesting as it is, she wants him to make a move. She notices him slightly move his hand closer to her, but pulls away at the last second. Nerves. How cute. She slowly rests her head upon his shoulder, and feels his arm slip around her. To her, nothing could ever beat this moment. The film ends and he drives her home. They step out of the car, and walk to her door. She smiles, and wonders what he's thinking. She notices his eyes again, and feels compelled to look into them. Then closes her eyes, and leans forward. She doesn't know what to expect, and she doesn't care. But its there, she finds him and they become one for what feels like an eternity. They break apart and she wraps her arms around him and whispers "i've been waiting for this".....

J-Moose

Somebody Gave You A Voice And All You Do Is Abuse It

Today i finally kept a promise that i made to myself when i was 10. While on my lunch hour i bought myself a journal. For 7 years i've had so many thing's i've wanted to put into writing. This blog is a good start, but it's hard to come up with topics everyday to write about. Thus, if i have a journal, i can constantly write down my thoughts, and then when enough has been composed, a new blog will be written. Don't worry though kids, i'm going to update the blog as often as i can and try to do it daily, but being deep and emotional has its limits.

The best writing comes from when have lots on your mind, you feel like crap, and you wanna cry. The first few blogs i wrote represent that. I can honestly say that at this moment i have a few things on my mind, i feel pretty decent, and i definitely don't need to cry. So i'll make another promise to you and myself right now.. I promise that i will always write on this blog and in my journal, even if i have nothing to say. I'm also gonna throw it out there to anyone that wants to write on this blog alongside me. Everyone has something to say, not just me, so heres your oppurtunity. I have made it my personal goal to make this blog something for the people, not just myself anymore. The worlds to big to just focus on myself. So for now, i will write to please my readers and myself....


J-Moose

The Beauty Is Gone For Good

I was walking home from my workout this afternoon and i noticed something thats never really caught my eye before. Along the sidewalk was an endless abundance of garbage. Chip bags, pop bottles, and i think i might have seen a test for some class. The world is becoming a disgusting piece of junk. When did the use of a garbage can become replaced with our green land? I always hear people warning me about the condition of our blue and pure earth, but i've never taken notice up until today. I'll admit i've done my fair share of littering over the years, but now when i look at the world around me, i question where the beauty has gone. When i look at the world today, i don't see see it through the eyes of a ten year old anymore, i finally see through the eyes of a young man, who finally realizes that he's helped cause the destruction of forests, the ice caps melting, and is part of a generation who don't give a rats about anything.

Yeah kids, we're the generation that doesn't give a shit. It's a known fact. We listen to our ipods on full blast, drive around in our rich daddies Hummer and pollute the sky, then to top it off we think that by underage drinking and smoking weed makes us look cool. In my last blog i spoke about where the broken man lives, the forest with a meadow around the bend, and waterfall that never seems to end. I honestly hope that somewhere in the world there is still a place like that. Somewhere that the government, Bill Gates, Steve Jobs and the monster known as Britney Spears haven't reached yet. Gee, what kind of dream world am I living in? A place that amazing could only exist in my dreams.

In a world that cries out in pain, some men will die each day in vain....

J-Moose

Cold Day In The Sun

Before i begin the latest and greatest from J-Moose, i'd like to congratulate my good friend Miss K, on entering into, what i believe (correct me if i'm wrong) to be her first relationship. She's an amazing young women and from what i've heard, he's a pretty good guy. My hat goes off to both of you.


Now the fun begins my friends. I walk almost everywhere i go. I don't feel the need to get my license, because i believe if i drove, i'd miss out on the world around me. The weather has never really had to much of an effect on my walking, in fact i love being outside in the cold. I love the feeling of the cold breeze running through my hair, and letting the wind slide though my fingers. I reached out one day, as if i was going to grip the wind, and quickly realized that to feel the wind, you have to become one with it. So i stood in place and let the cold breeze surround me. It's a weird sensation, but if you can do this, you feel the weirdest tingle all through you body, and its quite the unique feeling.

I also walk everywhere because i love the scenery. I was walking home from school last week and when i reached the path i take, i noticed that the leaves had blown off the trees forming this quaint little outline of the dirt path. It was quite the coincidence since at the time i was listening to "Yellow Brick Road" and the path before me was primarily yellow. Weird how stuff like that can happen.

Within what is left of the world beauty lies the home of the worlds unfound treasure. A forest with a waterfall and a meadow right beside it. The tall lush flowers that grow year round, and the animals that live in harmony, have their own distint sound. A simple little home for the man who left the rat race, to discover his own path. The life of a Broken Man may not be the best, but sometimes it beats the rest.....


J-Moose

Tits, Ass and All The Glories Of A Highschool Dance

So next friday is my school's winter formal. Despite the fact that i'm going, i hate school dances. The music usually sucks, the girls dress like whores and the guys usually consider the night a waste if they didn't get to cop a feel. Thats all it's about anymore isn't it boys? Tits and ass. The way i see it, most guys who go to these things will only have one thing on there mind (if they don't have a date), and that is how many girls will i grind with tonight? Kinda of disgusting right? But its the truth. Even guys who go with dates are tempted to look at some of the other girls there who let the guy they're dancing with completely feel them up, which is appauling to me. Show some dignity people!!

Is this what society has come to, only caring about breast and ass size of women? I mean yeah, looks do count, but how many celebrities do you see dating someone because "they're a good person deep downinside, and thats all that matters". Someone please tell that to the teens of the world and maybe we won't have to deal with kids who are constantly in a state of depression because they have no confidence in themselves......






Whoa, i think i just went completely off topic there. Back to the whole formal deal. Despite the fact that i'm going, according to my mother its a bad idea. Hmm, now would why this be considered a bad idea you ask. "Well whats the point in going if you don't have a date?" ?!?!?!?!?!?! Maybe because its my last highschool year and i should make an effort to go to all the dances this year, or maybe its because most of my friends are going, so it might be a good idea to have some social interaction, since i never go out. Well if i wanna go i need to see if my suit from last year still fits, since i'm not getting a new one according to my mom. It's upsetting to think that my mother doesn't think i'll have fun because i won't have a date, when i know countless others who won't either. But who am i to argue, i'm just a kid without a cause and the world is my playground........

J-Moose

Look To Your Right, and Then Your Left. If The Person Sitting Next To You Is Not Who You Expected Then Look Forward, And Look No Further

Friendship. Life isn't about the money you make, the fancy cars you might buy, the supermodel you might marry or the big house you might live in. It's about your friends. I can't tell you guys how many times i've seen people take friendship for granted, including myself. People always tell me that they don't like the people they hang out with, or there's so much drama with that person. Well guys i'm gonna tell you something, you don't have to like the people you hang out with. It doesn't make you a bad person if you don't like someone, in fact it makes you a better person. If you liked every single person you hung out with, and didn't think twice about that persons flaws, then i might think that your some kind of robot. Everyone, including me have people in their lives that they just can't stand. If you really can't take your friends anymore, even the ones you've been friends with, then try hanging out with someone new, someone you never see outside of school. I mean, this past weekend i hung out with someone who i rarely see, and i had a fun time. We've all got someone in our lives who we're always wanted to get to know, here's your chance guys and gals

My mother always told me, that everyone has one true friend. Someone they can trust above all other people, someone who will be their shoulder to cry on when they feel sad, someone they can depend on above anyone else. I personally haven't met this friend yet, but i know people who have. When you find someone out there who is willing to help you above anyone else, you know you have your one true friend...

J-Moose

It's Good To Know

I just wanted to quickly drop by and say thank you to the number of positive responses i've had to my blogs. I try to put thought and effort into what i write, and it is hard to come up with meaningful topics to discuss everyday, but none the less i try. It makes me happy to know that i'm not the only one out there with problems like mine. So here's what we're gonna do. I'm now opening my blog to giving advice to anyone who needs. I know that if we deal with our problems together we can help one another become stronger better people. Most of you know who i am, and unfortunately some of you choose to stay anonymous. I want you to know that i'm here to help you, no matter who you are. Maybe your someone i rarely talk to, or someone who i've never talked to at all, just know that i'm more then willing to lend my assistence in any way i can......

J-Moose

Hapiness May Not Be A Fish You Can Catch, But I Think I've Come Pretty Close

I don't go out a lot, but usually when the oppurtunity arises i will endeavor to make my presence known where ever i am. Tonight i actually had the privledge of being invited to two seperate things, one to hang out with some people at work, the other to go see a movie with a friend i rarely see.

I wasn't really into going out with people from work, not that i have anything against them, because they're good people, but i wanted to spend the night at home just chillin. Then as luck would have it, an old friend invites me to a movie, an oppurtunity i didn't wanna pass up. So i went out with him and his buddy, and i had a fairly good time. But instead of more boring details lets just get straight to the point. We went to see Fred Claus, which was kind of crappy. But throughout the movie there's that feeling of being happy. Maybe its the music, maybe its the sceneary, whatever it is, it makes you feel good inside. I'm not gonna lie, when i feel good inside i wanna cry.

I don't think i'll ever understand why happiness is so catchy, but i know that it deals with matters of the heart. Love makes you happy, your friends make you happy, knowing that you've done something fulfilling makes you happy. Tomorrow is a new day my friends, and for what its worth i think we should all do something to make someone else happy. I don't want anyone to expect praise for making this other person happy, just the thought of knowing that you did something good, should warm you soul. Right now i feel the happier then usual, and it's a shame that its after midnight and i can't share this feeling with anyone because i know that i could really make their day. I leave you with a thought my friends, "To see another smiles after you've made them feel good, is the warmest sensation that we as humans will ever feel"...........

J-Moose

God Truly Exists

Thank you Travis barker. Thank you.

Relationships Aren't Interesting

For what it's worth, i'm not against dating, or relationships. Lately though, all i hear is people constantly telling me, "aww your such a sweet heart" and "Don't worry J-Moose, you'll find someone for you". Let me explain something to everyone out there, i could care less about being in a serious realtionship right now. No i am not saying that i never want to be in one, but constantly i see people hooking up or breaking up, or just having a one time fling and i can't grasp on how they do it. Being in a relationship is something you have to work at, and if you don't show some commitment to it, then you either end

I'll admit i wouldn't mind having a girlfriend, i'm pretty sure i'd be a happier person if i did have one. But of course i go to the school where being a jock and being the life of the party gets you the girl. Don't get me wrong, there are quite a few attractive young ladies at my school, who aren't completely obsessed with finding the handsomest guy around. The problem with them is, they can do a lot better then me. It's not that i'm not attractive, i'm just not boyfriend material. The whole call every day, act all loveydovey. Sorry guys and gals, i'm just don't think i'm ready to take the relationship plunge. So for everyone i wish you the best of luck, but don't push me into doing something i'm not ready for.