The Weekend

Time for a new blog! I know, your all so excited and yet at the same time you have no idea what i'm going to say. What if I decide to make fun of the people who read this? Then what happens huh? Do you start some rampage and come egg my house? Or do you continue reading at the expense of being made fun of? Quite the connundrum eh? Yes, Canadians say eh, so get over it.

Ok all jokes aside, we know I wouldn't make fun of anyone unless I had their permission to do so. It's just not right. Besides I keep getting told that i'm a nice person and I wouldn't want that changing anytime soon. Well since it's the long weekend here in Canada, I might as well talk about what i've been up to. Let's start with friday night. Now as most of you know I go to youth group on fridays because i'm cool like that. Of course thats always subject to change, especially when I get to go out with KRISTINA! Yes, friday night a bunch us went out and celebrated the birth of the beauty known as Kristina Graham. The night started out at Jack Astor's where I indulged myself in my usual meal of a cheeseburger (yes, I only eat burgers when I go out to dinner. Most people have come to terms with it. It's not subject to change anytime soon. I apologize to my future girlfriend and her family. My eating habbits aren't the best). It was fun to kind of just relax and not worry about work and school for 5 minutes. As for a gift, well I can't really say i've changed much in that area. I've gotten everyone the same thing for the last 2 years. A card and 20$. I'm cheap. It was funny though, seeing the girls come in with their gifts in these nice bags, while the guys (excluding Eric) just had cards with 20's in them. Anyways, after dinner we ventured to Sobeys for a few minutes to see our friend Ashley. My friend Felicia works there as well and I kind of just talked to her while the others went to see Ashely. After that we went to Kristina's house for cake and movies. We watched Wedding Daze starring Jason biggs (the dude from American Pie) and that crazy chick from Wedding Crashers. It was pretty decent for a direct to home movie, although we had fun picking apart the scenes where the outfits change in a series of seconds yet they're still in the exact same place. Then I had to suck it up and be a man and watch a horror film called Untraceable. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but still I prefer a comedy or action flick any day.

So that was friday and it was pretty freaking awesome. Let's move on to saturday. Of course I had to work so that took up a good chunk of my day. After I got home at around 6:30 I changed and went on msn to see who was around. Within about two seconds of coming online Kayleen was talking to me, telling me that her brother and his friends were going through her room. We chatted for about an hour before we both realized that we had stuff to go do in town. She had to go to dollarama to pick some stuff up and I had been planning on renting a game for my wii (for those interested I rented Okami, and it's pretty freaking awesome). So we decided to kind of meet in town. I biked down to rogers rented my game and was about to head over to dollarama before I realized that I had no cash left on me. I dashed over to TD and took out a twenty. Now as I was doing this I heard this weird singing coming from what I thought was the ATM. My first thought was, "Cool these things play music now! I've gotta come here more often". Then I quickly realised that it was my phone and it was Kayleen trying to call me. After figuring out where I was she came over in her car and we decided to go for a drive around Ancaster. Of course before this happened we spent a good 10 minutes trying to figure out how to fit my bike in her car. After that fun we pretty much ended up driving into Hamilton after both of us yelling at one another "Where do you wanna go?" for 20 minutes because we had no idea what we wanted to do. After a while we ended up back in Ancaster and decided to sit and chat in Tim Hortons. It was great to just talk to her. She's one of the most amazing girls i've met in some time. The cool thing about her is, she pretty much feels the same about the dating world as I do. She's sort of got a bf right now, but she's trying to break it off. I keep telling her that she's already met her special someone and that he's just waiting for her to realize that he's there. She's a little skeptical about it, but I know she has. A great person like her, there's no way she hasn't. Sorry, i'm getting a little carried away here. Anyways, after we finished our hot chocolates she drove me home ( I should mention that she's younger than me and already has her G2. Shows how lazy I am at learning to drive).All in all it was a fun night.

That's pretty much what happened Fri and Sat. As for Sunday and Monday, i've fallen back into my routine of doing nothing, although i've been playing my Wii a bit. Anyways, thats it for now.

J-moose

Blush

This is just something a friend wrote about me, and I was blushing when I read it.

"My new friend J is lost somewhere in the dating game as well. I met him in New York City when we went with the choir and band this past April (well, technically I knew him before then, but I never really talked to him). He is a really cool guy, on the bus ride home we discovered that we were both equally hostile towards dating. To tell you the truth, I admire J because he isn't one of those guys who will just date somebody for the sake of dating somebody. He has been single for awhile now, yet he still believes that there is somebody out there for everyone. I think that is so awesome that he doesn't give up, and I am convinced that he will find somebody soon because of his supreme coolness, there aren't too many guys out there like him :D."

It's Unpredictable But Really That's What Love's About

Good day people! Yes i'm back and i've actually got something on my mind and usually thats what makes me continue to write my blog. So friday night I usually go to my youthgroup as most of you know and I have a damn good time going. There's great people there and they all want to get closer to God which is what I want as well. However there are certain things that they believe which I don't agree with. Not religion related but rather dating world related.

So let me set the picture. We did a photo hunt on friday night so we got to go all around hamilton taking photos of the most random things and making random poses and such, and it was quite fun (although at one point I thought a police officer was going to yell at us). Any ways, I was driving with our one leader Mark and his fiance Jen, and two other teens on photo team. When we had finished up the night we headed back to our meeting place for parents to come pick up the kids and what not. Our team made a small detour to drop off Jen at her house. When Jen left we all noticed that Mark didn't kiss her goodnight, which I found a little odd but then again it's their relationship and they hand P.D.A's however they want. Here's the kicker as we're pulling out of the driveway he begins to explain why he didn't. He said that it was because that once he started he wouldn't want to stop. He wouldn't want to let go. I can understand that since i've seen how Giacomo and Felicia say goodbye and it takes freaking forever sometimes. No offense to them but I have shit to do and I don't like to wait. No patience what so ever. Sorry, let's get back on topic. Mark then went on to say to the other girl in our car, Jessie, that she would find someone and that she wouldn't want to let go of. Then Mark asked her if she liked anyone, to which she made the perfect grade 10 response of "boys suck". Not that I expected anything different. Mark then said that it was good that she didn't have anyone and that guys shouldn't be of concern until she's 18 or 19. You can imagine that by this time I had a few words floating around in my head but I kept them to myself mainly because I hate to overstep my boundries.

Jessie then said that she might not find somebody to which I had to respond to by saying "there's someone out there for everyone". Mark immeadiately responded with, "thats not true. I know tons of people that are older that don't have anyone special". Thats where we parted ways on the this thing we call love. I'm a firm believer in that there's someone out there for everyone, no matter who they are, what they look like or what they've done. How can their not be? I mean if God hadn't intended to make a significant other for everyone then why are their so many people on this earth? That wouldn't make sense. I mean I know that it seems reasonable that not everyone may find someone but if you talk like that then the chances that you would have are cut in half and then your left with nothing. You go through life lonely and scarred. Look at me, single for the last year and a bit now, and I know that there's a girl out there for me. She may not be here at the moment but she eventually will walk into my life and when she does i'll know. Then again, on the other hand she might already be in my life and I just don't know it.

Me and my friend kayleen were talking earlier about this topic and we both feel the same about dating. The exception for Kayleen is that she's got a boyfriend (they've only been together a week) and for the moment she's got her special someone. Her fear however is that she can't let him and, which is understandble because it's hard to do that in any relationship. She also said that it felt like he was expecting them to be together forever already which isn't something she wants to think about in highschool. Of course she asked me if I had anyone special in my heart at the moment which I politley said no to. She was quick to remind me that my special someone could already be here waiting for me. I had a little laugh because I know this could be true. What made it better was that she told me that I was a great guy and that i'll make some girl happy one day, so at least I know when I re-enter the dating game i'll be decent at it this time around. Of course I told her that life is unpredictable and that you just never know. Plus with that logic it could mean that at one point in time I could end up dating her or whoever. Another thing we agreed upon. The future....something that's been on my mind for a while now. But that is a blog for another time, and with that in mind I must say my farwells for now.

J-moose

Reason 101 Of Why Matthew Good is Still The Greatest Musician Around

Guitar Players Cry

This pen of mine doens't write anymore. It's used up all it's ink. The papers on my desk don't fill up like they used to. My mind is so blank and i'll never know why. Those words I wrote were the last ones, my life, my body, my blood. What I used to say doesn't work anymore and it's not that I want to stop. But when you've reached your breaking point, you fall down from the top.

And it's creeping back to me these chords that I don't want to see. They don't fit these words anymore and they never will. It's like i've lost my ability to speak, and it's never coming back. My words are gone and this pen stays dry and i'm just a lonely guitar player and this is my cry.

My guitar sits in the shadows now it's not a piece of me. It's when I look back that my mind still wonders to those 6 little blunders, the A, the B, The C, The D, the E, the F or the G. I'm tired, i'm lonely and i'm feeling so low, and these notes aren't helping so i wish they'd just go. Over the top i'm just a musical flop and a sell out to corporate flair. I'm not what I seem i'm cool but not clean these eyes are meant to stare.

And it's creeping back to me these chords that I don't want to see. They don't fit these words anymore and they never will. It's like i've lost my ability to speak, and it's never coming back. My words are gone and this pen stays dry and i'm just a lonely guitar player and this is my cry.

Something i wrote about losing your inspiration. I haven't had any new ideas flow into me for a while. And I apologize for that.

J-moose