Jack Black Is Dead

LMAO Why do us Canadians never get to see this stuff? Oh right, because muchmusic only recently got their licensing back to show stuff from mtv. Stupid muchmusic, can't you see that mtv clearly has better programming.

Drunk On Aluminum

Let's not all jump in at once with blog ideas kids. My life is actually quite boring. Really. All i've done for the past month is get up, go to work, come home and then sleep. On the two days i don't work, I get up, sit at the computer for a few hours, go outside and walk around town, then come home and pretty much spend the night in my room. Yes, the sad unfortunate fact is that this is what i'm pretty much doomed to to repeat this process even when school begins. Everyones going to be off at university so they:

A) Will have much more work than I

B) Still maintain their part time jobs to take up another chunk of time

And C) Spend their remaining few minutes with their significant other.

Wait....some how I think i've written this exact same post before..well maybe not exactly word for word, but the general idea. Even when something exciting does happen to me, it lasts only briefly. For example, last sunday I had to break into my house. My family decided to go to the States for the day while I was at work and they locked all the doors, including the garage door which is how I usually get in. But no, I had to go find a ladder, place it on our deck, climb onto the roof, slide into my sisters room and then walk downstairs to shut off the alarm. After that, there's nothing else to keep the adrenaline going.

Works been pretty shitty lately with me ready to kill every member of our management team. I got written up for something I don't even remember doing, my new department manager has a certain dislike for me, and has the fucking nerve to tell me all the things i'm doing wrong, but then is never in the department when I need her help or have questions to improve my work with. No, no, instead she goes along with her merry day doing diddly squat, and then I get in shit for not having the department looking decent. Plus, no one on management has the guts to tell her off, but instead they whine and complain that the department modulars (moving things into new homes and shifting the department around completely) are still not completed. Nope, to them, starting mods 20 days after they were supposed to be done, doesn't deserve punishment at all. Of course not, because if it did, my department manager wouldn't be on her SECOND vacation. Hmm, she already had 2 weeks off, but now she gets a third week, during her department mods, causing almost everyone in the surrounding departments to have to help out and do them for her. I hate Wal-mart. Oh and another thing that proves how much management hates me, and Jordan. We were both scheduled in for day shifts this week to help with mods. The second that Roxanne, one of the many assistant managers, heard a maintenance page, she told me and Jordan to head outside to bring in buggies, which lasted for around half of both our shifts. Then when we finally got back inside, Roxanne told us to just clean the department up a bit.....every two minutes. She actually came up to me numerous times over a course of 7 minutes, asking "what are you doing?" or "what are you up to?" and many other variations. Even when i'm working hard, she tells me that I need to work faster because I need to get more accomplished for the department. AHHHHH!!! I've even tried to transfer to the electronics department so I won't have to put up with management so much, since they avoid the department like the black plague, for some unknown reason. No, even that won't happen. The personnal manager told me that, they've already hired one person for the department, while another was being interviewed. She then told me that the only way I could get out was if one of our full time associates dropped down to part time and transfered into my current department, allowing for me to switch out. The reason I can't switch out is because my department doesn't have enough people in it, but we can't hire more because we apparently have enough. Yet for some reason, no one ever closes the department at night and then I get blamed for it looking messy when I come in the next day...

Sorry guys and gals, I don't mean to rant like this, but i'm just really P'oed about it. Anyways, i'm sure i'll be posting more recently as school will be starting again next week and I know that even without my friends there, i'm sure i'm going to be part of someones drama.

J-moose/Jamie

Make A Mind Feel Mushy

You know, the strangest things keep occuring in my mind. It's as if i'm trying to tell myself something, but it keeps getting cut off by something else. Not something less significant, but, a blockade as one might say. A message that can't be read, heard, written out, or known in any way. Kind of makes me wonder what it might be about. Maybe something i've known for a long time that is choosing to manifest itself now, but keeps getting blocked by, weird lyrics and music in my head.

It's so weird, my mind keeps playing little riffs over and over in it, as if the music i'm creating is the message. The songs are what I seem to think are blocking what I want to hear, but it could be vice versa, where the songs are the message and are blocking something that could hurt me. Odd, I know, but somehow I don't doubt it. To me it makes sense. All these notes seem to flow seemlesly into the next as if it's telling me to pick up my guitar and make them real. But how do you do that? My fingers and me don't get along when I pick up my guitar. I like playing it, but I feel like i'm missing something when I play. I can start on one song, then 5 seconds later i'll lose interest and move into a completely different song that requires me to tune my guitar down or find a capo to use on it, which i've apparently lost. Challenges of the mind. Words and sounds that make a young man squirm.

J-moose

Vancouver National Anthem

That's it isn't it? How i'm going to be for God knows how long. And when I say God knows, I literally mean God only knows. I guess i'm getting kind of antsy in the relationship department again. Yes, I know, i'll find someone when the time is right, but somehow i'm thinking that day isn't coming for a long time, mainly because of something I asked for when me and Meghan finally stopped trying for one another. Wow, now that I think about it, that was a while back, at least a year now. In fact Meghans found a new love and I couldn't be happier for her. We're still friends, although not as close as we once were, but then again that will never happen. Too many changes in both of us. Not that it's a bad thing, but from grade 9 - 12 both of us have become way too different to become as close friends as we were at one point.

It's odd. Lately i've found myself slipping into the person I was before I became J-moose. Just plane Jamie. Weird, i've never said my real name on here before yet now it seems like my name and all of the past experiences that go along with it, are trying to come out once more. The past is once of those things i've never dwelled on all that much, but I do accept that it's there. J-moose and Jamie, two entities in one person. If we counted my real name, James, I go by Jamie since I like it more, there'd be 3. James however is too, how should I put this...to formal. Really that name only comes out when someone is yelling at me, so I guess considering him a part of Jamie is what i'll have to do.

Back to what I was saying. Two entities, one body. Now, I know what your thinking, this kid's off his rocker, making an assumption such as having multiple personalities. Wrong-o. I don't have that, nor will I ever. The best way to explain this is kind of like Harvey Two-Face from batman. On the one side you have is clean regular old face, someone who looks trust worthy and caring. On the other you have the scarred face that represents evil, corruption, and in some weird way, power over the weak. Jamie would be this side, just as J-moose would be the other.

Odd that i'm thinking about my past, since it was my horoscope that brought it up. However, it told me that it would hurt when I thought about it. It's not so much of hurt, as it is acceptance. Maybe to fully let J-moose move on, Jamie has to accomplish one final task. Problem being, Jamie is something I gave up being, and letting myself slip back into that would prove challenging, yet it appeals to me in a way most possessions can't.

Maybe once more....

J-moose

..or Jamie?

ps. The dates on blogger get messed up so it'll probably say that I posted this at least 4 days ago. Not true. The current date is August 11th 2008.

Curiosity Made Us Different

We're Cracked Up On The Good Life And We're Not About To Learn Anything But It

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We search through the stars for a light to guide us somewhere, to something no one understands. Step underneath your ignorance, become the one you hate, you'll earn respect quicker that way.

It's nice to see people won't change unless you give them everything they hate. Everyones a sucker for the life they don't own. Imagine that, you wanna be like them, blinded by stupidty, popularity ain't worth the longevity.

Now we're homeless, we're not a concern anymore. The world is still spinning, the lights are still dimming, but we won't be around to see it happen..at least not in their eyes.