Starlight, Starbright

.....So why am I still doing this blog? When I logged into blogger a few minutes ago, I had no idea what I wanted to talk about. Yet, here I am, five minutes into it, and suprisingly enough I still don't know what I want to discuss. The possibilities are endless, there's always something floating around in my head, but tonight I can't seem to focus on anything. I'm sitting here at my desk, doing my history isu and listening to some tunes, but something just doens't feel right. Usually if somethings wrong I get I a feeling in the pit of my stomach, but not tonight. I can't figure it out. Maybe there's something i'm supposed to do, someone i'm supposed to talk to, somewhere I should be. I turned off the light in my room, so all i see is the glow from my laptop. Maybe this will fix it.........

No. Still feel weird, still think there's something I should be doing. Not homework, not Wal-mart. Damn, what the hell is it? this gonna bug me for hours now. I just wanna be outside and sitting at the park down the street from my house. I haven't been there in so long, but tonight it seems to be calling to me. The monkey bars, which i was always to tall to go across, but short enough to sit on top, seem like a look out post over my neighbourhood, and I feel tempted to just go there tomorrow and lay on top for hours on end. The stars and the moon beating down on me, with a good friend there too. I think its one of those things you want to share with someone close. Not a boyfriend or girlfriend, just someone you feel comfortable enough with to talk about life and the perils it holds. Sometimes I try to imagine that person, but I can't. I haven't met them yet. Or maybe I have and I just don't know it. Time to pray for answer? No. I'm gonna figure this one out on my own. Maybe this person will read my blog and look to the stars themselves, or maybe they won't.....

J-moose