This Makes All The Hurting Go Away

Rehab has never seemed funnier.

Middle Class Gangster

Where in the world would i be without my music? I honestly can't remember the last time i wasn't able to solve a problem by listening to music. Tonight for example i've just been listening to a lot of soft music, and or something that gets hard during the chorus. I've also begun dabbling in this band called explosions in the sky. A fellow blogger told me about them, and i've gotta admit, their pretty good. No vocals, just band. It's pretty awesome. For some strange reason though, i haven't been able to get this one song by matthew good band out of my head. It's called Middle Class Gangsters, and its just this soft little diddy. Its pretty much about this guy who's not the norm for the world. No girlfriend, and gets beat up a bit. But for some reason, i feel totally compelled to sing along with this track. I figure i share the lyrics with you, since i don't know how to add background music. So here it is, enjoy:

"Middle Class Gangsters"

Ain't got no action grip

Don't come with a full compliment of weapons

Get off your illin tip

I don't recognize anybody from around here anymore

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And I don't want to be your punching bag

Are we losing

are we Middle class gangsters

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Wasn't looking at your girlfriend

Didn't touch your Mustang

When I was In the parking lot What don't you comprehend

Well I'll speak slowly if your on something

Or faster if your not

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And I don't want to be your punching bag

Are we losing

Are we middle class gangsters

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So put on British steel Curse today and

How you're feeling

Well everybody up and down my block

They used to matter when we used to rock

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And I don't want to be your punching bag

Are we losing

Are we middle class gangsters

So What?

I don't care anymore. I feel pretty damn awesome today. Considering i've got tons of homework and an assignment i'm supposed to be working on right now, thats due next period (i come home on lunch to finish stuff up) and i'm not even close to being done editing it, yet i feel as though i don't have a care in the world. While i'm typing i've got 3 songs on repeat that i'm singing along to:

True Love Will Find You In The End: Matthew Good
The Living: Neverending White Lights ft. Corey Puerlmo
Christmas ( baby please come home) : U2

These 3 songs have this amazing effect on me, that makes me happier then usual. True love will find you in the end for example, is helping me realize that love will come to me when it finds me, not when i find it. It tells me that i don't have to worry, because true love is searching too, and that i just have to step out into the light to let it know i'm there. The living talks about how people will let the world pass them and wait their whole life before they let people in and feel truely happy and at peace. If i went up to someone in the halls at my school today and asked them if they take what they have for granted, their response would probably be "not a chance". But if they were to answer truthfully, they'd probably regret most of the things they've done. The living kind of makes me think like that. Christmas (baby please come home) is really just about wanting to spend the holidays with good people, and possibly make someone close to you feel pretty good. Well i was supposed to leave my house 10 minutes ago, so now i'm gonna be late for last period so later everyone......

J-Moose

Stay True, We Believe In You

I just read something about true love that i'm never gonna forget. It's from a fellow blogger, and I've gotta say, i'm becoming quite interested in her blogs. I'm not gonna post a link for her page or tell you who it is, mainly because she wants to stay private, but if you guys ever find this person, read what she says and take it to heart. My heart actually sped up while i was reading it, and i've never had that happen before.

J-Moose

Where Do We Go?

If anyone was to ask me at age 10 what i wanted to be when i was older, i probably would have said video game designer. At age 15 I had planned on being a teacher. Now, at age 17 I have no idea where i want to go and what to expect out of life. If I was going to decide on a career I probably would want to go into the field of broadcasting, mainly because it's my dream one day to be a much music vj. I know, its a complete contradiction to my earlier blog stating how my goal in life is to be forgotten, but I am allowed to have more than one dream.

I have days lately where I feel like i'm wasting my time here in my hometown. In the back of my mind I know that there's somewhere else i should be, doing something that would either better the world or just the people around me. How many people can honestly say that they've never felt that they should be somewhere else? Everyone has these kinds of days, but to me these days are kind of a message from God. Religion, something i've choosen not to talk about on here, mainly because i'm currently unsure of what i believe in. There's things about the Catholic church i don't believe in, but then again, there's also tons of it that i do believe. Weird, how most kids who go to a catholic school are unsure of their faith, yet won't admit it.

I think I know what I have to do. I think i'm just gonna take one day over the christmas break and just go out and completely explore my hometown. Not by car, but by foot. In case most people don't know, I walk most places instead of driving (also because I don't have my G1) There's so much I want to see and do around town, but i feel like i've always been sheltered from it, by my own need to stay away from the world around me. I probably won't discover anything new about this place, or about myself from doing it, but it'll be interesting to do.


J-Moose