Where Do We Go?

If anyone was to ask me at age 10 what i wanted to be when i was older, i probably would have said video game designer. At age 15 I had planned on being a teacher. Now, at age 17 I have no idea where i want to go and what to expect out of life. If I was going to decide on a career I probably would want to go into the field of broadcasting, mainly because it's my dream one day to be a much music vj. I know, its a complete contradiction to my earlier blog stating how my goal in life is to be forgotten, but I am allowed to have more than one dream.

I have days lately where I feel like i'm wasting my time here in my hometown. In the back of my mind I know that there's somewhere else i should be, doing something that would either better the world or just the people around me. How many people can honestly say that they've never felt that they should be somewhere else? Everyone has these kinds of days, but to me these days are kind of a message from God. Religion, something i've choosen not to talk about on here, mainly because i'm currently unsure of what i believe in. There's things about the Catholic church i don't believe in, but then again, there's also tons of it that i do believe. Weird, how most kids who go to a catholic school are unsure of their faith, yet won't admit it.

I think I know what I have to do. I think i'm just gonna take one day over the christmas break and just go out and completely explore my hometown. Not by car, but by foot. In case most people don't know, I walk most places instead of driving (also because I don't have my G1) There's so much I want to see and do around town, but i feel like i've always been sheltered from it, by my own need to stay away from the world around me. I probably won't discover anything new about this place, or about myself from doing it, but it'll be interesting to do.


J-Moose