Make A Mind Feel Mushy

You know, the strangest things keep occuring in my mind. It's as if i'm trying to tell myself something, but it keeps getting cut off by something else. Not something less significant, but, a blockade as one might say. A message that can't be read, heard, written out, or known in any way. Kind of makes me wonder what it might be about. Maybe something i've known for a long time that is choosing to manifest itself now, but keeps getting blocked by, weird lyrics and music in my head.

It's so weird, my mind keeps playing little riffs over and over in it, as if the music i'm creating is the message. The songs are what I seem to think are blocking what I want to hear, but it could be vice versa, where the songs are the message and are blocking something that could hurt me. Odd, I know, but somehow I don't doubt it. To me it makes sense. All these notes seem to flow seemlesly into the next as if it's telling me to pick up my guitar and make them real. But how do you do that? My fingers and me don't get along when I pick up my guitar. I like playing it, but I feel like i'm missing something when I play. I can start on one song, then 5 seconds later i'll lose interest and move into a completely different song that requires me to tune my guitar down or find a capo to use on it, which i've apparently lost. Challenges of the mind. Words and sounds that make a young man squirm.

J-moose

Vancouver National Anthem

That's it isn't it? How i'm going to be for God knows how long. And when I say God knows, I literally mean God only knows. I guess i'm getting kind of antsy in the relationship department again. Yes, I know, i'll find someone when the time is right, but somehow i'm thinking that day isn't coming for a long time, mainly because of something I asked for when me and Meghan finally stopped trying for one another. Wow, now that I think about it, that was a while back, at least a year now. In fact Meghans found a new love and I couldn't be happier for her. We're still friends, although not as close as we once were, but then again that will never happen. Too many changes in both of us. Not that it's a bad thing, but from grade 9 - 12 both of us have become way too different to become as close friends as we were at one point.

It's odd. Lately i've found myself slipping into the person I was before I became J-moose. Just plane Jamie. Weird, i've never said my real name on here before yet now it seems like my name and all of the past experiences that go along with it, are trying to come out once more. The past is once of those things i've never dwelled on all that much, but I do accept that it's there. J-moose and Jamie, two entities in one person. If we counted my real name, James, I go by Jamie since I like it more, there'd be 3. James however is too, how should I put this...to formal. Really that name only comes out when someone is yelling at me, so I guess considering him a part of Jamie is what i'll have to do.

Back to what I was saying. Two entities, one body. Now, I know what your thinking, this kid's off his rocker, making an assumption such as having multiple personalities. Wrong-o. I don't have that, nor will I ever. The best way to explain this is kind of like Harvey Two-Face from batman. On the one side you have is clean regular old face, someone who looks trust worthy and caring. On the other you have the scarred face that represents evil, corruption, and in some weird way, power over the weak. Jamie would be this side, just as J-moose would be the other.

Odd that i'm thinking about my past, since it was my horoscope that brought it up. However, it told me that it would hurt when I thought about it. It's not so much of hurt, as it is acceptance. Maybe to fully let J-moose move on, Jamie has to accomplish one final task. Problem being, Jamie is something I gave up being, and letting myself slip back into that would prove challenging, yet it appeals to me in a way most possessions can't.

Maybe once more....

J-moose

..or Jamie?

ps. The dates on blogger get messed up so it'll probably say that I posted this at least 4 days ago. Not true. The current date is August 11th 2008.

Curiosity Made Us Different

We're Cracked Up On The Good Life And We're Not About To Learn Anything But It

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We search through the stars for a light to guide us somewhere, to something no one understands. Step underneath your ignorance, become the one you hate, you'll earn respect quicker that way.

It's nice to see people won't change unless you give them everything they hate. Everyones a sucker for the life they don't own. Imagine that, you wanna be like them, blinded by stupidty, popularity ain't worth the longevity.

Now we're homeless, we're not a concern anymore. The world is still spinning, the lights are still dimming, but we won't be around to see it happen..at least not in their eyes.

Teen Celebrities Are Really Pathetic

As you all know, i've never been one to take shots at celebrities. I do however like to watch them take shots at one another, and really who could do that better than teen celebs. To be more acurate, female teen celebs. Now I don't care much for Miley Cyrus, but lately making fun of her just seems so much easier than it has been in the past few months. There were the "racy" photos of her on the net, but really she could save herself the grief from that by saying that she was being a 15 year old girl and didn't know better. Come on, her dad freaking wrote "achy breaky heart" so really, can she actually have any morals when it comes to love? Not in my books. And what would a teen celeb be without their youtube page. I mean, I don't have one, but I can the obsession of carrying around a camera, or being on webcam constantly. I mean, it's like the complete opposite of tv, she can say what she wants, put on as much makeup and look like a total skank if she wants, and she cause a cat fight with other teen celebs, all by youtube. What a great site. I just used it to watch movie trailers and old episodes of digimon, but damn now I just can't wait for the next Miley and Mandy show. People you don't know what your missing here. Oh and to counter Miley and Mandy, we have the less known, less loved, Demi Lovato and Selena Gomez. Much like Miley they decided to make their own youtube channel and make their own craptacular videos. Now I am just waiting for the retaliation on this.

*edit... Me and html code don't get along so i'll give you the links instead.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhGEO9XDmis - watch this first
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7t_t6gRFe8



Now tell me this isn't asking for a teen war? Silly teen celebrities, fame is for those who can act. Did you see that? The spoof of The trix rabbit. See I can be funny.



J-moose

What Doesn't Kill You, Simply Makes You Stranger

Don't worry people i'm still alive, i've just been doing....well nothing actually but the nothingness really keeps me bored and uninspired so thats one reason why I haven't been writing. However, enough has accumulated in the past little while that I figured it was time to write once more. Well I knew this day would come eventually but I didn't think it would happen so soon. I'm quitting Walmart. The store has gone downhill quite a lot in the past little while and with the lastest stunt I figured it was time to find a new part time job. In the last month or so my old manager, Darren, or as he's referred to in here, Stupid Moron, got switched to a new SWAS( a SWAS is a certain group of departments that one of the many assistant managers is in charge of). Of course this meant i'd be getting a new manager since he was gone. Enter Roxanne. Now by no means is she worse then Darren, but really she's not much better. Her first act as manager was to book me in on my not available days forcing me to leave my little bubble inside my home. Not cool. (Yes, i'm lazy and i've come to accept this fact). Secondly, somehow she got a hold on my availability change for the summer, which i'm positive I never handed in, and put that into effect. Now really the second one wouldn't be so bad if I actually got hours!!! Next weekend I have two shifts, one being five and a half hours, the other being six and a half hours. Now, I know it's not much to ask, but when I work on weekends, I expect two 8 hour shifts, be it a 8:00 am or anytime after that. Really, I mean thats what i've got for the past 2 years, so whats the harm in keeping with that. Oh, but wait, this wouldn't be a real story if I didn't get screwed over even more. I am no longer J-moose from toys, but now I shall be known as J-MOOSE FROM SPORTING GOODS!....Add sarcasm here to show just how much I hate this. A few weeks back Roxanne and Darren called me to the back and said they had to talk to me. At first I had hoped I was getting fired, but no. Instead, they ask me if I want to move to sporting goods, while giving me the "move or be fired looks". I was kind of hoping they were giving me a raise since, according to them i'm such a good worker and i'm an asset to the walmart team, or at least thats what they keep telling me.

Also, The Dark Knight is possibly my new favourite film. I was already a huge batman fan but now, I think if I could, I would want to live in Gotham City. Yes, nerd alert.

Wow, i've only begun to realize how long its taken me to get a new post going on here. So, in light of me finally writing once more, I figure I should do what I do best..Write about the music i'm diggin.

There hasn't been too much lately, but i've found a few gems in the rough:

1. Sloan - Believe In me, Album: Parallel Play - The year wouldn't be complete if Sloan didn't make their glorious come back, and damn what a come back it is. Of course it's not the come back that'll make them as popular as they once were, but we take what we can get, and so far the helpings have been gracious. Believe In Me is probably the closest thing that sounds similar to the old Sloan stuff like, "Losing California" or "People of the Sky". No, it's not the feel good song of the summer, but it definitely beats out the last song I heard from them "Who Taught You To Live Like That".

2. Against Me - Stop!, Album: New Wave - I'm not gonna lie, I didn't really pay attention to this band until I heard this track. However, when I finally listened, I was brought a catchy punk track, which made me rush out and by the album its on. Although the song is short, it delivers, which is all that one can ever ask for.

3. MGMT - Time To Pretend, Album: Oracular Spectactular - I just like the keyboard riff....it's cool.

Ok so there isn't much but we have lots to look forward too! Although the track listing has been announced and the album title, Matthew Good will make us wait for his next album for at least another year. Good's calling this one "Vancouver" . Apparently it's going to be about how the city has changed over the years and not for the better. Should be interesting. Also we can expect the new Rise Against album in March. No lead single has been announced yet, but the title is going to be "Appeal To Reason".

Alright, I know it's not what I could be writing, but really if nothing interesting happens, i've got nothing to say. Hopefully the next time we meet, i'll have some decent things to write about.

J-Moose