D.O.A (Death Of Auto-Tune)

Thank you Jay-z. Fuck Auto-tune.

Same Shit, Same Person, Different Month

There's so much in this world that we take for granted...that I take for granted. I can't even begin to explain how much regret there is in this world. I'm regretful...hell i'm still stuck on living in the past. I'm one of those people that says "Maybe if i'd done it like this" or "I never should have said that". Days when regret comes to haunt you are the worst. Days when you feel that even when you act like yourself, your still covering up the real you. I hate acting like the real me. Everytime I do, I find myself saying things that make me seem so...incoherent. When I go to bed at night, I'm regretful of the way I act, and present myself to the world. There is no right way for me to be. There's the guy that has no life and wastes his time on wikipedia learning the stupidest things that have no relevancy towards anything. There's the guy that makes feeble attempts to try and be social and try not to be mean, but even he fails, because people still tell me they hate me (not even kidding, one of the girls at co-op legitimately said it and she doesn't regret it) and that i'm a jerk. Finally there's the guy that people get to know over time and somehow come to accept him, even though in the back his mind, he can't accept them for accepting him as it confuses the hell out of him as to why they do.

I believe that the world will fall under the weight of it's own ego. I believe we will be crushed by the power of our stupidity and ignorance. Why? Because we're so focused on winning something for our foolish pride that we can't see 10 ft in front of us. My eye look closed everyday, but I see what some people don't want me to. I appear like i'm not listening but I hear things and know things people don't want me to. You call me a snoop, but a snoop uses their information for personal gain. The day I give a fuck about someone I work with, I barely know, or will never see again, is the day I call myself "Castanza, lord of the idiots". George, fuck you and all you troubles. Not that I hate Seinfeld, but damn George is just annonying sometimes.

I love the world, don't get me wrong. But people need to learn where to draw the line. Girls who constantly believe Edward Cullen is coming for them, guys who think that by acting slick and greasing their hair will get them any girl on the dance floor. The husband who cheats on his wife, because "Everyone's doing it" or the wife that actually knows of her husbands filthy loins and doesn't care because she's got a job and house, why ruin it with a divorce. Give me one reason not to pretend like everyone else...someone has to have at least one, right?

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I'm apologetic to be precise, it's not much but it's worth the wait.

I'll wipe the blood from this cut to prove a point, i'm bigger than your ego, and you'll never know. Define yourself through someone else, look in a mirror, there's no one starring back. We've all felt like you and now you'll feel it too, suck it up and look around, no one's crying for you.

I'm just a little bit jaded, but i'm content with life. Things can't be this bad, because i'm not giving up on the one thing that matters. Give me a the cards, and i'll cut them one last time. In this game, i'm always the winner.

Guaranteed

This song won a golden globe for best original song in a motion picture back in 2008. It's from the movie "Into the Wild". This movie had a huge effect on me and always will. The novel which it's based off of is a true story about Christoper McCandless, a young man who ventured into the dreams that we all have. He tried to live off the land in Alaska but was ultimately killed by the harsh climate and starvation. I'm sure i've written about him before, but this song keeps coming back to me so I figured it deserved to be heard.

J-moose

Now I'm The Other Man. No One's Rooting For Me

I've come to realize that life isn't anything I expected it would be like. Yeah, you get your up's and down's, but I was expecting there to be more of the up's. See, I have this crazy over active imagination that makes me think about stupid things. Like, oh J-moose, what if your life turned out this way and you had X amount of friends and did what they do. Or, damn wouldn't it be nice if you could write a guitar riff equal to the one's N comes up with and then write a kick-ass song together. Sometimes I get jealous, of all my friends. Some of them have lives which for the longest time I wished and prayed that I would have one day.

If it wasn't for my ability to view the world as it really is, I think i'd be lost in translation more often than not. Okay, here's something odd that I came upon from my lovely facebook account. I saw that one of the many people on my list had taken a quiz on "which teenage television show do you most relate to?" or something like that. Anyways, I apparently relate to "Boy Meets World", which i'm quite happy with since I grew up watching it. But the weird thing about the quiz was the questions it asked. What do you like to do on a friday night, what's the one word that describes you in your group of friends. What do you do when faced with a problem? Personally I hated the answers I gave, mainly because they were completely fake and not true. Sure i'd love to hang out with friends on a friday night...but I work everyfriday and don't go out after. Yes I call my friends right away when faced with a problem because they definitely want to hear me whine and bitch for 20 mintues about something they really don't care that much about.

No, life is not like a tv show. It never will be. I wouldn't want my problems to be exploited to the world for a cheap 5 minute thrill. If I ever do become famous, and God hoping one day I will and then I will use my incredible amount of fame to revert Muchmusic back into playing actual music videos and not just So You Think You Can Dance and One Tree Hill (although I do watch OTH if it's on. It's addicting) Anyways, if one day i'm famous, I plan to live my life here in Canada, probably somewhere in Vancouver or Toronto. Forget moving to L.A just because I can, it's not worth the trouble of living anywhere near the fake crap known as The Hill's or The City.

I'm tired and going to bed.

Peace Out

J-moose

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