Writing Because I Felt I Had To

Hello blog world. Don't give me that look, I know it's been quite some time since I last had anything to say, so I apologize for not being here sooner. Nothing interesting seems to be happening to me anymore. It's gotten to the point where i'm not repeating the same day, but close enough so that tiny little things will change, and i'll take notice, thus making it different...if that makes any sense.

Anyways, i'm not too sure why I decided to come back on here, but something tells me i'm going to be here again in the upcoming weeks...not sure if that's good or bad.

J-moose

Reel College Ep 1

Vancouver

"On nights like tonight when no one's around,

I sit in the dark on my hands on the ground,

and I smile like the devil smiles, unseen but proud,

but truth be told I don't know who's at the helm,

just sit tight and i'll make my way to you"

Thank god Matthew Good released a new album. I'd probably be going insane if I didn't have his words to get me by.

Vancouver (the new album), is Good at his best. He's not doing that cheap alterna-country crap that was on his last album, he's finally back to rocking out hard with lyrics that inspire me to want to write again. The quote at the top of the page is from the song "On Nights Like Tonight". When I first heard it, I kind of felt like I was reliving a night like that. Memories flooded in of the times I walked up and down the streets of Ancaster, listening to my Ipod and knowing that one day it'll all be worth it, and to endure any inner turmoil that i'm going through. I try to smile as often as possible, but some days it's harder than others to make a sincere face.

I....don't have much else to say. My life has been quite dull since I left for school. Sure i've made two great friends in Dan And Jordan, but my mind constantly tells me that I can't always hang off them in my need to fit in. They've managed to make friends with the people in their labs, but I can't seem to do that. The people in my labs are just...idiots. Some of them are alright, like Russel and James, but there's others that i'd rather just not talk with. Not because their bad people, but I don't see myself being friends with them or talking to them outside of class. I constantly battle with myself whenever Dan has friends over to our room. I want to come out of my room and go talk with them and hang out, but I can't do it. To me, I see it as those are his people, and I don't wanna invade into their territory. I guess it can't be helped though, I was like this in high school as well. The only difference was I had Kristina there to talk with if things got too tough. I miss her more than I miss any one else from Ancaster.

I went into the walmart I used to work at on Saturday just to say hi to people and see how everyone was doing. It was good to see Paul and.....well it was good to see Paul. Taylor wasn't working until 4 so I missed seeing her. I did see Shelby though...I think it was more awkward than anything. I even saw Ryan, one of my supposed closer friends, and it didn't feel like he was to happy that I was there either. I mean we talked for a few minutes but he was leaving so he wanted to get out of there as quickly as possible, which is understandable, but still it was like, why are you here again? You don't work here, so we don't care what you're doing here, just do it and get out. After that I decided to go visit Omar over at Futureshop. He managed to leave walmart about 2 weeks after I did, and he was happy to do so. I think I talked to Omar longer than I did with anyone else. I think he's the only person from walmart who actually misses my presence, excluding Taylor and Paul.

I sound like I'm expecting people to jump for joy when I go in there, but that wasn't the intention. I guess I was just hoping I had made more of an impact on people there, but I guess not.

I'll say it again, I miss you Kristina Graham, some days more than others.

J-moose

Something I Stole From Matthew Good

The following is from www.matthewgood.org

This post intrigued me so i'm putting it on here since I know none of you have ever been to his site. Enjoy :)

A Boy And His Machine Gun

I know who you’re waiting for. No one’s coming though.

I haven’t a lot of time to write these days. With the release of the new record only days away, I’ve been doing a great deal of press and find myself too exhausted to ponder commenting on current events when I’ve free time. I commonly find myself sitting chairs, staring at nothing, trying to put all the pieces floating around in my head together regarding the upcoming tour – what songs to do, what not to do, how to go about it all in an impacting way.

I have well over 100 songs in my catalogue, which means that playing for 90 minutes, or even 120 minutes, is a significant challenge when it comes to deciding what to play. Obviously, performing 6 or 7 songs off the new record is a given, which leaves 7 to 9 others up in the air. You can’t please everyone, nor can I rehearse with a band for two weeks and get over, say, 80 songs down so that random numbers can be pulled out of thin air. It’s something that becomes more daunting every time I tour with a band – how to formulate the show.

On my way into town the other day I spent some time doing some homework. I listened to Beautiful Midnight from beginning to end. It’s hard to imagine that it came out ten years ago this month. It’s equally as hard to imagine that there was a time when I played most of those songs live. Were you to hand me a guitar and ask me to play A Boy And His Machine Gun or Failing The Rorschach Test the truth is that I couldn’t. I remember the melodies, but even the words have escaped me, not to mention the chord progressions. True, it wouldn’t be that difficult to quickly sit down and figure them out, but that just adds more fuel to the fire – what to play, what not to, what’s relevant, what isn’t.

The thing about being in a band is that the past is remembered, you retain the ability to pull out obscure songs from the past. When you’re a solo artist, and have a large catalogue of material, the process becomes far more difficult given the fact that even if those that play with you are brilliant musicians (which Stu, Blake, and Milos are), it’s simply impossible for us to work up that sort of live catalogue given that we live in different cities and the time that we have to prepare is limited. With the old band it was different. We had a rehearsal space, we could get together whenever we wanted. These days I have to fly to the other side of the country to do it. That would be why preparing for an acoustic tour is much easier and the songs that I’m able to perform are greater in number – because I can sit in my basement and do it.

I don’t even know where I’m going with this. I have a break in my schedule right now, so decided to sit down and write. I think I’m going to go lay down and think some more.

Ah thinking – the bane of my existence.

Bittersweet Symphony

Hello....I'm J-moose. And after a long absence I have decided to return. I don't consider the last few posts on this page real posts at all. A side of me just wanted to say that i've actually posted something on the site so it'll satisfy anyone who looks at it. Wrong! No, that's not what I intended this site to be. Me posting random videos of things I like. This site was meant to be about me, and every little thought that comes into my mind. When I first started it, I had all this reason to write and to get those thoughts out into the world. Now, it just seems like I've gotten so lazy that even when something thought provoking comes along I can't get it out.

Just now for instance, my mind kept telling me to listen to "Bittersweet Symphony" by The Verve. A beautiful song that I've never given much credit to. That's not what i'm here to discuss. The thing that i'm more concerned about is why it choose to make itself known to me now. I think it has to do with all the worrying i've been doing lately. Yes, I worry, quite a lot actually. I can hide it well, since i've done nothing but hide for years. It's quite a lovely talent. I'm looking at the lyrics for the song and after reading it over a few times I think I understand why I wanted to hear it. It's a song about life....life and how some people will be a slave to one road and one thing. Richard Ashcroft, the writer of this song, uses money as the one thing we concern ourselves with. "You're a slave to money then you die" Ouch..I may not be a slave to money, but I can't say i've never not been concerned with the cost of certain things, like college.

Then there's another line. "But i'm a million different people from one day to the next, I can't change". I think I relate most with this line. Jamie, J-moose, Jay, James, all different names i've been called for years, with the more prominent being Jamie and J-moose. It's hard to be one person. I try hard, more than people will ever know, to become someone likeable. I know when I worked at wal-mart I was this odd, rude, egotistical teenager who.....I can't even word it properly. How stupid is that? I can't even give an accurate description of myself. I still believe that to this day, Shelby wanted to slap me, more than she would have with Jared, and believe me she disliked Jared more than anyone. Then again, I could be completely wrong and just really paranoid.

When I arrived here at college, my biggest concern was, who should I be? There's tons of students here, some i'll never even meet, but for the ones I do, I still do not know who I will be to them. There are days when i'll be in a big group of people and I will have some random thought pop into my head, so i'll try to bring their conversation closer towards the thought in my head, just so I can say it. I feel odd when I do that. Jamie wants to keep his mouth shut, but J-moose wants to talk and never stop. My roommate is much more outgoing than I am, and he can meet new people no problem. That's a great quality in a lot of the people here, but it's not something in me. I can't do that. Going up to a crowd of people and saying "Hey" or getting involved in an ongoing conversation.

I feel energetic yet I know I have to sleep. I feel tired yet my mind says keep writing. It wants me to tell everything stored up in it since my last real blog, but I can't. I can't let people know everything..It would take away from the potential for future blogs.

Dirty enough I got me a love and it's so bad, it's so bad. Hello time bomb, ready to go off.

Pictures of You

I don't know if it's possible or not, but in the world of tv I guess almost anything is. I was watching the show One Tree Hill, something i've found myself doing as of late, and to my surprise, tonights episode struck a chord with me. The episode dealt with the main characters and some one off characters having to spend an hour truely getting to know someone. Of course as per tv standards someone ends up with a goth, another a firm believer in God, while some end up with people they already know and re-evaluate why they are friends. They are given 50 minutes to complete a list of things they must learn about one another, as well as a camera to take a photo of how they see this person. Naturally it's a whole life changing event for the kids of tree hill high, but the question that intrigued me was, is it really possible to change your life in 50 minutes?

What happens in 50 minutes? It's 10 minutes until the next hour, or 50 past the current. If you take a shower are you dry in 50 minutes? Can you lose a pound in 50 minutes or can you put one on? This episode showed me something that i'd forgotten about, high school people in particular. Despite the fact that everyone in my graduating class has already enjoyed one year of college or university, I still think some of them will apply to the labels that are given out to every student. My label? Loner. Yeah I had some friends, but I prefered my solitude most days. I hated highschool and most of the people in BT were either idiots or sluts. If I had the oppurtunity to spend 50 minutes with someone in that school, doing what the cast of One Tree Hill did, I don't know what i'd learn about them. Logically thinking, the shows actors have scripts they keep too, so of course their characters will reveal their deepest darkest secrets at the slightest whim. In real life, if I had to spend 50 minutes with one of the popular girls at BT, I would never tell them about me. It's not like they'd care enough to go, wow you so this way when I thought you were this way. Plus with the way students are at my school, someone would end up using the information to make you an outcast.

Fact And Faction.

J-moose

I'm A Legend In My Own Mind

No more pain...

No more pain...

If I gave up tomorrow would the world even care? I'm not leaving a footprint, i'm not doing my share. I've had my fill of people and the way hold themselves. If I was giving up on them, i'd have to ask myself. Did you make sure they were happy, do you know that they're okay? If I was giving up them, i'd have to run away. And I know, that this world won't slow for them. It's too easy i'm not worthy of their time, but it's harder to forget, words and pictures that we have, so I write this down instead. I'm not sure I can help you, i'll only bring you pain, this isn't what I hope for, it's not like i'm to blame. It started with a promise I made some time ago. I asked for a favour which I just can't forget. My happiness comes second, because theirs I can't forget. I told myself be helpful, make them never walk away. I'm not sure I can keep this up, it's not like i'm around that much, so easily i'm scarred. When I see them hurting, it's hard to not break down.

I'm sorry for their sadness and I want to ease their pain, but when i'm all alone at night, i'm just another face.

I didn't intend to write this, but I heard a song by Matthew Good that inspired me. It's kind of written to the beat of said song, so technically I can't claim this as my own. If you interested, the song is "If I were A Tidal Wave" It's an acoustic track, and his acoustic stuff is pretty deep sometimes.

D.O.A (Death Of Auto-Tune)

Thank you Jay-z. Fuck Auto-tune.

Same Shit, Same Person, Different Month

There's so much in this world that we take for granted...that I take for granted. I can't even begin to explain how much regret there is in this world. I'm regretful...hell i'm still stuck on living in the past. I'm one of those people that says "Maybe if i'd done it like this" or "I never should have said that". Days when regret comes to haunt you are the worst. Days when you feel that even when you act like yourself, your still covering up the real you. I hate acting like the real me. Everytime I do, I find myself saying things that make me seem so...incoherent. When I go to bed at night, I'm regretful of the way I act, and present myself to the world. There is no right way for me to be. There's the guy that has no life and wastes his time on wikipedia learning the stupidest things that have no relevancy towards anything. There's the guy that makes feeble attempts to try and be social and try not to be mean, but even he fails, because people still tell me they hate me (not even kidding, one of the girls at co-op legitimately said it and she doesn't regret it) and that i'm a jerk. Finally there's the guy that people get to know over time and somehow come to accept him, even though in the back his mind, he can't accept them for accepting him as it confuses the hell out of him as to why they do.

I believe that the world will fall under the weight of it's own ego. I believe we will be crushed by the power of our stupidity and ignorance. Why? Because we're so focused on winning something for our foolish pride that we can't see 10 ft in front of us. My eye look closed everyday, but I see what some people don't want me to. I appear like i'm not listening but I hear things and know things people don't want me to. You call me a snoop, but a snoop uses their information for personal gain. The day I give a fuck about someone I work with, I barely know, or will never see again, is the day I call myself "Castanza, lord of the idiots". George, fuck you and all you troubles. Not that I hate Seinfeld, but damn George is just annonying sometimes.

I love the world, don't get me wrong. But people need to learn where to draw the line. Girls who constantly believe Edward Cullen is coming for them, guys who think that by acting slick and greasing their hair will get them any girl on the dance floor. The husband who cheats on his wife, because "Everyone's doing it" or the wife that actually knows of her husbands filthy loins and doesn't care because she's got a job and house, why ruin it with a divorce. Give me one reason not to pretend like everyone else...someone has to have at least one, right?

i'm

I'm apologetic to be precise, it's not much but it's worth the wait.

I'll wipe the blood from this cut to prove a point, i'm bigger than your ego, and you'll never know. Define yourself through someone else, look in a mirror, there's no one starring back. We've all felt like you and now you'll feel it too, suck it up and look around, no one's crying for you.

I'm just a little bit jaded, but i'm content with life. Things can't be this bad, because i'm not giving up on the one thing that matters. Give me a the cards, and i'll cut them one last time. In this game, i'm always the winner.

Guaranteed

This song won a golden globe for best original song in a motion picture back in 2008. It's from the movie "Into the Wild". This movie had a huge effect on me and always will. The novel which it's based off of is a true story about Christoper McCandless, a young man who ventured into the dreams that we all have. He tried to live off the land in Alaska but was ultimately killed by the harsh climate and starvation. I'm sure i've written about him before, but this song keeps coming back to me so I figured it deserved to be heard.

J-moose

Now I'm The Other Man. No One's Rooting For Me

I've come to realize that life isn't anything I expected it would be like. Yeah, you get your up's and down's, but I was expecting there to be more of the up's. See, I have this crazy over active imagination that makes me think about stupid things. Like, oh J-moose, what if your life turned out this way and you had X amount of friends and did what they do. Or, damn wouldn't it be nice if you could write a guitar riff equal to the one's N comes up with and then write a kick-ass song together. Sometimes I get jealous, of all my friends. Some of them have lives which for the longest time I wished and prayed that I would have one day.

If it wasn't for my ability to view the world as it really is, I think i'd be lost in translation more often than not. Okay, here's something odd that I came upon from my lovely facebook account. I saw that one of the many people on my list had taken a quiz on "which teenage television show do you most relate to?" or something like that. Anyways, I apparently relate to "Boy Meets World", which i'm quite happy with since I grew up watching it. But the weird thing about the quiz was the questions it asked. What do you like to do on a friday night, what's the one word that describes you in your group of friends. What do you do when faced with a problem? Personally I hated the answers I gave, mainly because they were completely fake and not true. Sure i'd love to hang out with friends on a friday night...but I work everyfriday and don't go out after. Yes I call my friends right away when faced with a problem because they definitely want to hear me whine and bitch for 20 mintues about something they really don't care that much about.

No, life is not like a tv show. It never will be. I wouldn't want my problems to be exploited to the world for a cheap 5 minute thrill. If I ever do become famous, and God hoping one day I will and then I will use my incredible amount of fame to revert Muchmusic back into playing actual music videos and not just So You Think You Can Dance and One Tree Hill (although I do watch OTH if it's on. It's addicting) Anyways, if one day i'm famous, I plan to live my life here in Canada, probably somewhere in Vancouver or Toronto. Forget moving to L.A just because I can, it's not worth the trouble of living anywhere near the fake crap known as The Hill's or The City.

I'm tired and going to bed.

Peace Out

J-moose

N

I Know A Girl As Pretty As Can Be

There's always something or someone to write about, and today it's about somone. Someone I hold very close to my heart. Someone who I love very much (friendship love), because she makes me laugh, she makes me smile, she's there when i'm feeling down and she's got this aura of kindness that surrounds her even when she's not feeling at her best.

I've only known her for about 3-4 years, possibly a bit more, but it feels like I could have known her years ago in another time and place. This girl embodies what some people would crazy , overly hyper (which I have never seen anyone else match), down to earth, loving, sweet, and a whole list of things I can't even begin to describe. I've had the privledge and the honour to call her one of my best friends, for a while and I would never want that to change.

I recall the first time we really started to talk and build our friendship. It was in grade 1o english. We sat next to one another and would talk while working. When we read from whatever play we were doing from shakespeare, our teacher would tell us what points we should highlight or put a star beside. I would never really do it, but she would reach over and do it for me. Of course I would just look over at her like she was crazy but in really, I was thankful she did it.

Thank you, for being you and for all that you do. The lovely, Kristina Graham.

Trigun

1)As nerdy as it sounds, this show is freaking sweet.
2)The theme song is pretty damn awesome
3) Vash The Stampede, a gunman like no other has the greatest quote of all time.....

"This world is made of......LOVE AND PEACE!!!"

Juno Awards And Why Nickelback Didn't Deserve To Win A Single Award

For us Canadian's music is a huge part of who are we. It represent's our country in a way that we can be proud of and have something that we can share with the rest of the world. However, even with all of the amazing band's that Canada has going for it, every year we manage to overlook some of the best music that's been released. Today was the one day out of the year where we should have been proud of some of the great albums that were released this year. Yet, every year that this day comes, we are subjected to the same cock and bull story..."And the Juno goes to.....Nickelback!".

That's right, tonight at General Motor's Place in Vancouver, we had to go through another year of "And the Juno goes to....Nickelback". First off, the juno should never go to Nickelback...ever. They have no talent. Don't get me wrong, at one point and time, I was a fan of them, I even own their album "The Long Road", which was suprisingly decent. All joking matters aside though, if I were to go pull out an album review of their latest effort, "Dark Horse", i'm pretty sure I would see nothing but negativity. It sounds exactly the same as their last two albums, and it's pretty much the same story with their singles. The first one is usually a sappy song filled with remorse or wanting to be more than one could ever aspire to be. Not that there's ever anything wrong with that, but for after 5 or 6 albums, it's gotten pretty lame. Then there's the second single, that focuses on Chad Kroeger getting laid. I'm not going into details with that, because the thought of Chad Kroeger being able to right about "Something In Your Mouth" or going at it like "Animals", just creeps me out.

I know i'm probably going to get penalized for this, but in times of dire need, Matthew Good always seems to hit the nail on the head. I'm not mentioning him because he's my favourite artist, but I do have a good reason. Good's been nominated numerous times over the years, be for it stuff he did with the Matthew Good Band, or his solo work, but not once has he ever gone to the juno's. Not once. If memory serves me right, Dave Genn, the ex-rhythm guitar player for MGB went one year because he heard there was an open bar. A little off topic, but i'll get back to my point. This quote is taken from his site and I think it says what I wanted to, but with a little more meaning behind it

"There are a lot of don’ts in the music business. One of them is having the audacity to pronounce the belief that art is not a competition and that trophies needn’t be handed out to validate what any artist would intrinsically do even if they spent the majority of their time working at a gas station and the rest of it recording poor quality demos in some basement suite on an antiquated cassette four-track. Ya, some of us have the gall to make a living at it, but God forbid any of us dare openly express ourselves beyond the contents of a compact disc. We are, after all, lucky to be able to write, record, and perform music for a living – God knows the majority of us weren’t endowed with talent and just happened to grease our way through music’s formidable front door"

Well that explain's how Nickelback did it, along with Simple Plan, Good Charlotte, and numerous other's who some how are still making album after album of the same thing. Do we really need the Juno's, muchmusic, MTV, VH1 or any of these things anymore that are apparently the way we convey what is good and what is bad in the music industry? Muchmusic used to be one of my favourite stations to watch. The intererviews were pretty good, the music video's were always on when I came home from school, and late at night, you'd get those genre specific programs that they didn't air during the day. Now we get SYTYCD, and ABDC, along with Paris Hilton's British Best Friend, and other craptactular programming. I don't think The Punk is even on saturday night's anymore. I found some really good bands on that show, and now I when I flip to much at Midnight it's either, Meet The Barker's or T.I's Road to redemption. I don't care that your going to jail, but do you really have to get those last 15 minute's of fame before you go off to prison for a year? Wait, I shouldn't say that, I will Admit that T.I is a pretty decent artist, but his show is just so set by the standards of MTV that there really isn't anything I haven't seen before. Much had their own show like this a few years back, except it wasn't headed by anyone famous, and all they did was exploit kids who have had a loss in their life or are losing someone close to them in the next 5 months.

Sorry, I kind of had a spur of the moment anger fit with Muchmusic. It happens a little to often. Anyways, I'll say it again, do we really need an awards show that only praises those are repeat the same process every album? Do we need a show that has no idea what the meaning of the word "New" is? Because last time I checked, The Stills had two other albums under their belts, and to me when they finally get noticed by the mainstream and are being classified as new, it doesn't give me a lot of hope for the music's future.

Here's the link to Matt Good's post about that state of music. If canadian music is something you take pride in, I'd suggest reading it. http://www.matthewgood.org/2009/03/say-hello-to-the-bad-guy/

J-moose

Baby Come On Take It All Off

I've been looking for this song for a long time. Now I can dance to it.

Max McKay

Maxwell McKay

Ch 1.

In a young man's life, there are defining moments that pave his path to adulthood. The first, is his first kiss. Imagine if you will, a young man out on a date with the girl he admires so very much. He walks her up to her front step and she says the classic "I had a really nice time tonight" and he nods his head in agreement, palms sweaty as he rubs them against his jeans, trying to overcome his fear of the next few seconds. His mind his racing as he feels his body begin to move, yet he doesn't remember telling it to. Slowly, he reaches her lips and presses them against his, thus completing his first step into manhood. This was not the case for Max McKay. In fact, it had been quite the opposite for him. His first date had gone as well as one could expect it to, but when he tried to do this, his lady friend proceeded to go inside her house, and slam the door right on those puckered up lips. Yes, Max McKay was left high and dry with his lips, pulsing in pain. Oh, when I said slammed the door in his face, I mean literally slammed it in his face. It's a wonder nothing else got damaged, because in this writers opinion, that's all he has going for him.

Another stepping stone in a young man's life, is the first time he decides to drink. He's out with the boys, maybe a group of girls as well, having some fun, when...let's call him Timmy for intentive purposes, decides to pull out a bottle of rum or vodka, that he snuck out of his dad's cabinet and pass it around. Oh when that first drop of alcohol hit's that boy's mouth, he's hooked for the next 10-15 years, or at least until he get's married. That is if his wife isn't a male version of him, then all bets are off. This did not happen for Max Mckay. No, poor Max had a different tale of his first drink. Being the most daring out of his group of friends, it was Max who brought the booze, and it was Max who ended up drinking the most. His friends, unlike him, were able to control themselves, and had only a few sips of the drink they were offered. Max on the other hand decided that in order to liven things up, he would drink the whole bottle of vodka and see what would happen. If you use your imagination i'm sure you can figure it out.

Max ended up passing out on his friend Matthew's couch, only to awaken 20 minutes later and throw up on Matthew's carpet. Luckily, Matthew was home alone for a few days and figured out how to clean it before his parents ever found out. The third instance is probably the most obvious one, being the first time a man makes love. I won't go into details about this experience, as I've got more respect for myself and for anyone else out there who feel's awkward when reading about this topic. However, I will tell you about Max McKay's first time. As you probably guessed, it didn't happen in the regular perimeters of life. This is not to say that his first time wasn't memorable, but not so much in a good way. Max was at a party with his friends, having some drinks, letting themselves become intoxicated in the night, when he notices a girl from across the room. He quickly goes over and makes small talk for a few minutes, until she takes his hand and leads upstairs. She's goes into an empty room and tells him to wait before he comes in. Patiently, he did so, and before he knew it, her voice beckoned for him. He slowly reached for the door handle and walked in. Now, i'm going to let you assume that this ended badly for Max, as most events usually do. This was probably the worst of them all.

When Max opened the door, he saw two big, bruting guys standing there, cracking their knuckles. Two black eyes, a broken rip, and a sprained ankle later, Max wound up in a hospital, having his clothes taken from him, as well as his Wallet, his phone and his car keys. Life for Max McKay, was anything but ordinary.

This is his story.

This is going to be good. I can feel it,

J-moose

U2 Top Ten

Damn! I knew my video's weren't getting to youtube for a reason.

Love Lockdown?

BAM! I so nailed the title on this one. I've been pondering this one for a few days now, letting my thoughts stew and I think i've come to a conclusion...Reality Bites..Hard. Okay, let me explain where this is coming from. First, it's not about me, big shocker, but instead about this lovley television show called the bachelor. As I'm sure 9/10 of you know, that a few days ago, Mr. Perfect bachelor, who is apparently the most gorgeous thing on earth yet had to resort to reality tv to find a wife, made his selection thus ending the season. Now usually, the two would get married a few months later and then divorce after 3 months of marriage, leaving the guy heartbroken once more and the girl richer then before. Well this time around we got something so stupid and pathetic that even i'm slightly disgusted.

Picture this...the guy proposed to his new found "Love" if that's what we're calling it, and of course she said yes. Whoo! All hands on deck right? Wrong! No, this guy was really stupid in his selection, or at least that's what he's leading me to believe. 6 weeks after the proposal, he decides that "Damn, this bitch is cramping my style. Maybe that girl I dumped will still have me. I mean, the sex was alright, and she was pretty hot. Alright, i'll call her up and make up some cock and bull story about how I made a mistake and that she's really the one for me"

Let's chat for a moment. *pulls out a chair and sits on it backwards, because that's how the cool kids do it". In real life, things don't just happen like that. No, we go through this thing called love and either we end up with that person for a long time, or we break it off and wind up in a morbid state of depression until we realize that there's more than one love in our life. Jay Brock once asked me if I believed in true love and if I thought there was a one and only person out there for me. Naturally, or at least my version of natural, I said yeah, there's only one person out there for me and if I find them, i'll do my best to make them happy. Well to Jay, this couldn't have been further from the truth. He gave me an example of him and his then fiance Michelle, now wife. He said, if Michelle was to die a day after our wedding in some bizarre accident, I would probably be really sad. But, I know that she would want me to move on and find someone new. She wouldn't want me to waste my time thinking that she is the only women out there for me. If she died, I'd be sad, but i'd know that there's someone else out there. Don't waste your time believing that there's only one person in the world for you. You could end up lonely for a long time. It's not what God wants for you, but he'll do it if he deems it necessary.

Okay, so the last part in that is a little religious, but Jay is one of the most religious people I know. Anyway, the point i'm trying to make is that Love isn't something we should be taking for granted. Just think of that poor women who's now left with a broken heart and nothing but a brieft stint on televion to show for it. Wait, I'm being told that it's most likely that she'll become the......THE BACHELORETTE! Oh come on, like it's not going to happen? Prove me wrong world, prove me wrong.

J-moose

Kristina Graham is Awesome!

This was written well over a year ago. It's pretty much about me and Kristina being hyper, so let's see if she remembers it.

Before we begin, i'm going to make this clear to everyone. Kristina Graham is possibly the funniest/greatest person I know!! For around 30 minutes now we've been discussing a few things pertaining to my last post. At first it started with her being a good friend and promising me that we'd still see each other next year when she starts university and I stay back for another year of highschool. It really made my night! Then it kind of moved into what must be the funniest conversation i've ever had on msn.

So at first she promised that I would be in her wedding party with me saying that she could also be in mine, when I found a wife. Here's where it gets funny, or to me and her anyways. Kristina said would find me a wife, to which I assumed now grow on trees. But the catch for this wife is that she must participate in a series of challenges that will test her mentally and physically. Well didn't I just have the greatest idea to make it into a reality tv show, since fox would probably pick it up, and make millions off it! Not only would they pay for my wedding but i'd be filthy rich. Of course i'd split the riches with Kristina since it was her idea. So our idea for the show is that it will take bits and pieces from reality shows already in existence. Here's what I thought up as challenges for each show.

Survivor - Contestants will spend 2 months living in the Ancaster outback or downtown Hamilton, whichever seems worse, and go through a series of challenges including:
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EDIT: Kristina and me were talking and she said i needed a new blog. So here's an unfinished one that I wrote well over a year ago. Let's see if she remembers it.

Of All The People I Could Have Seen

Sunday February 15th

Here's what went down. Most of you know that in past blogs i've talked about my friend Nick. The dude is like one of the most popular guys I know and has the social life I kind of always wanted. Plus, his girlfriend Emily is one of the most beautiful girls i've ever met, and she's a big flirt (not with me, but i'll explain why in a bit). Anyways, me and Nick barely have time to see one another anymore. He's got Emily and his Buddy Cale to keep him company, but from time to time it's nice to hang out and remember that he's got me around as well.

Well, on this past sunday my family had the privledge of going to Nick's mother's second wedding. Her first marriage ended a few years back and since then she's been dating this great guy named Jim. They finally tied the knot on sunday and I couldn't be happier for them. But for me, the wedding wasn't all that important. Sure, I love Kim, she's a great mom and she's done tons for me and Nick over the years. Seeing Nick again is what made the wedding what it was. We talked every few minutes, but we kept it short since he was in the wedding party and was with them most of the time. His friend Cale was there with his girlfriend, Nicole, and of course Emily was there for Nick. Now, I don't really know these people...like at all. I've met Cale a few times over the years, but Nick and him are much better friends than I've given them credit for. It kind of makes sense since they work together, go to school together and get shitfaced together. Yes, Nick drinks, and if the day ever comes that I stop being a pansy and decide to live, meaning drink, i'd probably have my first one when I'm chilling with Nick. Nothing against my other friends, but Giacomo and Felicia don't drink, Kristina...well I would, but I guess i'm more comfortable drinking with Nick. Anyways, me and my sister, Hilary were sitting at the teen tabe, consisting of Nick's friends, his younger sister Katie's boyfriend and two best friends, and some girls from his mom's work. Now, if you know me, i'm not much on conversation. Years of being a loner have made it hard for me to converse without trying to act like someone different. Hey, you gotta impress the people, and J-moose doesn't cut it with this crowd.

I get off topic very easily, don't I? I tried to converse with Nick's friends, but really I found myself being more indulged to talk with Emily. It's not that we spoke that much, but that girl is something different. She's like a Kristina mixed with a little bit with Felicia's kindness (Not saying that your not kind Kristina, but you know as well as I do, Felicia is something different), and then all of the party girls from my graduating class. So you can imagine what a girl like that is. This girl is an "Enabler". Enabler meaning, she drinks and wants others to drink with her. She got Katie's boyfriend, (two years younger then her) to have a few glasses of lord knows what, which in hindsight probably wasn't a good move, but hey, she's dating Nick so i'd expect nothing less. Every free moment Nick got to come to our table, she would offer him some of whatever she was drinking and then get more. Since she's underage till september, as were Nick, Cale and Nicole, I ended up being the one to get them drinks.

I'm 19 now, incase most of you don't know. Feb 6th for future reference. I probably got her and Nick a handful of drinks, but not that much. She knows how to pace herself, so she didn't get drunk or even giddy. Then again, i'm not around drunk people much, so I don't know what it would be like. At this point in the wedding reception, the music was blaring and people were staring to dance. As you all know, or maybe you don't, I'm single and damn proud of it, so of course I didn't have a date or anyone to dance with. Here's the kicker...to a girl like Emily, that's not an excuse. She dragged me off my seat and pulled me onto the dance floor. I was pretty sure that it might have been Nick who told her to do so, but then again, this girl isn't like most other people (In a good way that is. If you ever read this Nick, you know i'd never bad mouth her) so she might have done it of her own accord. Now, you might be asking, what about your sister J-moose? Well, unfortunately for Nick, he had the dishonour of dancing with her. I wanted to laugh at them, but since I was dancing with Emily, she made it a competition to prove we were better than them.

Now, by this point if you haven't gotten an image of what Emily is like, then I'd say your pretty stupid. If you have, then you'll assume she's one of those camera loving girls, who have to have photo with almost everyone. Well, much to my discontent, I actually got in on some of these..although they looked hideous..even she told me that in one of them I looked a little awkward. Not that it matters much to me.

All in all, I had fun..Probably the most i've had in some time, or at least since the last time I went out with Kristina and Eric...just seeing Kristina is one of the many highlights of my life.

Me and Nick both agreed to make a conscious effort to try and see one another a bit more, since we enjoy talking and playing guitar together (He does most the playing, while I attempt to sing) In fact, the last time we hung out we made a cd for Emily, something he did with a bunch of his friends, for their anniversary.

Anyways, it's late and i'm tired,

so farewell for now

J-moose

Old Friendships Still Get Me Down

Once Upon The Night

Give in now, they've called you up. The winners over there, stand by others, pair in pair. Up again, down again, the wall's are all around again, now it's a show, we're so glad you know. State your name, be calm outside, your dead inside, it's piercing light. Fools around, they laugh at you, it's crazy what you'll try to do. Fit into their little minds, making sure your on their time. All around you'll hear them, we're gonna give you up one day.

One day, you'll hate what they have done, but it's now or never. From tomorrow and on, these friends you once had, won't matter. Up again, down again, over my head, it's so fucking stupid, to hear what they've said. Up again, down again, that's what they said, now stand up be proud, don't wish they were dead.

HAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

lil wayne has just lost all credibility. Never ever let a rap artist try to write a rock song. It sounds awful and should never have been created.

In The Words of Prozzak "Sucks To Be You"

I'll make this clear.

1)Those of you who went to basshunter tonight, I laugh at your misfortune.
2)The only good techno is Daft Punk, LCD soundsystem, and Leftfield.
3) Those of you complaining about basshunter and how it sucked and how you want your money back, suck it up. You paid for a concert that was at a small venue and was completely oversold. No, you wouldn't have known, but if Iwas you, I would just cut my losses and stop bitching. I'm sure you got drunk before it anyways, so i'm sure some good came out of it for you.
4) Those of you kiced out for being drunk, good riddance. I don't drink, but I don't have a problem with those of you who do. None the less, if your going to get smashed and then expect to get into a concert where security is going to be a bitch, just stay home, wait for a better concert where the security doesn't give a shit (almost any underground band)

That is all.

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Just so we're all on the same page....FUCK YOU CHELIOS

I Feel A Million Miles Away

"One foot in front of the other. One foot back to counter it" - Matthew Good

As the school year comes to a close on semester one and the new year only just beginning, it seems as though a wave of depression and sadness have struck a chord with the people I call friends. Although in Kristina's case she's just sick, so she doesn't count in this...sorry, you know I love you to pieces. In fact, with what she just told me tonight, I can only assume she's beyond happy, or at least she was a little while back. I'm not going to explain what she's happy about, but i'm happy for her, so that's all that matters. Moving on to more pressing matters. One of the most tragic things happened a week ago. My two best friends, Giacomo and Felicia, split after 2 and half years of dating. Yeah, long time, I know. It's tragic. I found out through facebook, like 3/4 of the info I get now, and was somewhat distraught over it.

To me, their love seemed to be the best kind. It was a strong relationship, but somewhere along the line it faltered. I'm not going to say what happened. It's no one's business but theirs and the people they choose to tell. I love them both greatly and I feel their pain. I've gone through it before. Not so much in the same way, but it's the same general idea. I hate going into detail about the past, so let's not get into something that happened almost 3 years ago. Moving along.....I think it's time I did a music blog. I haven't done one in God knows how long. So.....

J-MOOSE'S ALBUM/SINGLE'S TEARING IT UP IN 09!

WHOOOT! Okay, no more gimmick.

1. Ulysses - Franz Ferdinand, Album: Tonight : Franz Ferdinand
The boys of franz ferdinand are back after a 3 year waiting period from their last album. It's hard to say that this is the same Franz we remember, but it is. The song is a little darker, and has much more mature sound to it. Besides the regular 4 instruments, the song makes great use of the keyboard, especially during the pre-chorus, right when Alex says "Let's get high" for the first time during the first verse, that keyboard/synth comes in and owns it, letting us know that something is coming. Great song, and I can't wait for the album. A few magazines have already had the chance to hear and it's been warmly recieved for the most part with a few nay-sayers here and there. It happens though.

2. Get Your Boots On - U2. Album : No Line On The Horizon.
I'm somewhat disappointed that this track hasn't been released yet. Although it's been confirmed as the first single, the band's choosen to premier at some show on the 18th of february. Bull crap! I want my new U2 now! Damn Bono, always trying to ruin it for the fans. And you call yourself a good samaritan...for shame. *tear* **UPDATE** Sorry, the new single will premier this monday and will be heard on the dean blundell show on 102.1 the edge. No exact time yet, but monday morning for sure. **Update 2** I've just heard a 20 second preview of "Get On Your Boots". It's different for sure, but definitely U2. It's experimental with a hint of the regular U2 formula. Can't wait to hear more.

3. U.S.S (Ubiquitious Synergy Seeker).Album : TBA.
I love this band. I bought their 7 track ep and I think it's pretty awesome. They've been working on a full length disk for a little while now, so i'm assuming we can see this album sometime in april or may. It may be a while, but it'll be worth it. *update** New single premiered friday night on 102.1 the edge. It's called "Laces out". The album is called "Einsteins of Consciousness" and will be out sometime in march.

4. Billy Talent - Album: TBA
I'm having trouble understanding what B.T is doing. Maybe you guys can explain this to me. They released a new song in September. Yeah, september, 5 months ago! Almost half a year. WTF? Where the hell is the new album? I'm getting annonyed now. According to sources, the band entered into the studio in November to record new songs. Then what might I ask, was the point of releasing the single in september if you don't even have the album done yet?! It's mind boggling. Anyways, this one's going to be dropping in march, like U2's new album, so i'm assuming it's going to be overlooked by the world and only listened to in Canada. Damn Bono.

And finally.....

5. Matthew Good - Album: Vancouver

The follow up to 07's hospital music is finally moving into full swing. Good's in the studio as we speak, recording up a storm of new tracks. Unlike his fellow Canadians in B.T, Good released his new material over his site, and made it clear that these songs are demo's. In fact, almost every song from the new album was put up on matthewgood.org at one point or another. Of course if you missed the day they were posted, you had to rely on the good nature of others and hope you can find a torrent of these new songs (I was so happy when I did). Anyways, if the demo's are any indication of what's to come, i'm excited. The piano driven track "Last Parade" is my favourite at the moment, with "The Vancouver National Anthem" trailing close behind. The release on this one's still up in the air, as he only entered the studio last week, so i'm thinking a mid april or early may release. June at the latest.

That's it for now. If you guys have any music that your digging, post it i'll try to talk about it a bit.

J-moose

Lift Off

We Have MUSIC!!! About time eh?

Watchmen

Watchmen

I am the hero, waiting to save them, giving them hope and trust. I am the victim, living off fear, cowering sickness. I wait for nothing, going in circles, playing the hero, saving the victim. I am the aftershock, caused by the hero, the hero's good actions, the victims bad fortune. They play the game, saving the world, knowing no others, owing them nothing, it's our time!

I AM THE WATCHMEN!

Giving my life to them, never looking back, don't question what I am. I feel no pain, I gain what you give, my city must live, now try and stop me!

I am the villain, giving you purpose, making you worth something, i'm the reason you. You'll never catch me, i'm just a clown and i'll always win. Death is my partner, sin's all I see. I'll kill that hero, he must not live.

I AM THE NOTHING!

I ALWAYS WIN!

Somebody dies and it's not a sin. I'll play my game, and make my point to him.

OH! The Boss Is Coming. You Better Look Busy, They're Not Paying You For Nothing.

Oh...Hello there. Yes, it's been ages, but none the less, i've been told that I need to write more here. Plus, enough has transpired that I can actually write on here again, and have a decent amount of things to say. First off, Happy 09 and Merry....whatever you celebrate. Yeah, christmas isn't the only holiday out there, so i'm being considerate.

So, what's new you with J-moose you might ask? Well...not a whole lot, but there are a few things to discuss. "Let's wind the clocks back. A year ago these cops and lawyers wouldn't dare cross you. I mean, what happened? Did your balls drop off?" - Joker.

Sorry I couldn't resist. I've probably watched that movie about 9 times since I got it on blue ray, and then a half today at work since I have a digital copy. Anyways, i've been asked to come back for a second co-op. Technically I asked, but still it's a second co-op to learn even more stuff about tv. I'm going to be in charge of the other co-ops and i'll be directing every show. Plus, I have to go out to at least 5 city council meetings and do at least one AHL game. The ahl game might be harder to do since it's a friday night and I have to work fridays. Even if I get it off, i'd have to make sure I wasn't opening on the saturday. By the way, Wal-Mart finally realised that opening at 6am was a huge mistake. Now we're open at 7am. I'm waiting for the day that they go back to 8 am and I can start wearing my regular clothes again. That was a good summer, which got ruined by a simple change of state. State being Old Wal-mart to Super centre. Also, if I haven't mentioned already in a previous post. I'm in Electronics now. I was super stoked to get in there, even with my availabilities. Can't do Mon-Thurs due to co-op, which is technically a second job now, but more fun than wally world.

Okay, so Electronics was fun when I started. I had Taylor, Omar, Shelby and....well that was about it, but they were good people. Shelby even vouched for me to get into the department, which i'm sure she regrets now since...long story short, I said something to one of the associates in connection centre and asked if Peter, Shelby's boyfriend and the other Connection Centre associate, had gone on break. Of course the response was yes. Now this wouldn't be an issue if Shelby hadn't decided to go with him, leaving me to work by myself in a department with tons of customers. It got busy as soon as she left. Our other associate was on lunch, so Shelby knew she shouldn't have gone for break, since she knows there has to be two of us on the floor at all times. Anyways, when they got back 15 minutes later, the other connections associate pulled shelby aside and had a chat with her. I'm assuming it was about going for break with Peter, but I don't know for sure, but for the rest of the night she was giving me the cold shoulder, so I can only assume. Even since then we've not gotten along as well. Especially when I wasn't too warm towards one of our new associates. I made it clear I wasn't fond of her, and Shelby was, so naturally we butted heads at least once. Now I just keep my mouth shut about it, even she asked me last night why I don't like this associate and that they're so nice. I just didn't like this person. Easy as that. I know another associate who didn't either, but i'm pretty sure he kept his mouth shut around Shelby. Not to say that Shelby's mean or rude. In fact I owe for getting me in Electronics. It's just that lately, she's been..different. I've got nothing against her, honest, but I just wish it wasn't so tense. And it's not just me and her, oh no, i'm pretty sure everyone in the department has issues with at least one person. Excluding B-Love. He's too quiet and nice to actually say anything rude about anyone. Omar has been really pissed with one of the older ladies in our department. It was so bad they had a bit of a yelling match last weekend. Then she had the nerve to go talk to other associates and say that he was saying all these bad things about her, when in reality she was shit about him. He wouldn't stoop that low. Never. He's got to much repsect for himself to go down to that level of childishness. Even I don't like this person. She steals customers from me all the time. If I say we don't have something, she immeadiately pipes up and says "Wait, I might have seen that over here last week". So she drags the customers to the back wall to find an item that we don't have. Or I'll be talking to a customer about a game and they'll ask my opinion on it. And as soon as I go to open my mouth, "Oh my sons got that game, he loves it. It's so good for him". Well thanks, but they weren't asking you, they asked me. Some people aren't happy unless they're being heard. It's unfortunate.

*sigh of relief* Boy am I glad to vent that out. I think thats good for now.

See Kristina, I still write here when the mood strikes me. Oh, here's a vid for you guys to enjoy. It's a song from a video game "Little Big Planet" but it's so catchy that i've grown to love it.



My Patch - Jim Noir