Your Head's In Your Heart Now

So i guess once in a while parents are right, and its a shame that i didn't listen to mine regarding this.

Tonight was my school's winter formal. Yes, most kids usually have fun at this things, but of course, yours truly is the exception. Let me explain my night to you. It started by going out to dinner to jack astors with a few people. .For the entire dinner i had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just felt crappy the entire time and the only thing that made me feel somewhat better is when i went to talk to my two best friends. My burger (yes, i had a hamburger, i don't eat veggies or anything that good for my health. A shame isn't it?) was undercooked and the cheese wasn't even melted on it, so honestly what else could go wrong? When i finally got to the dance i had the Privilidge of meeting Miss K's boyfriend, who i must say was quite the nice guy. I talked to a few times througout the dance and he was really cool. As for the rest of the night i had a pretty crappy time. No it wasn't the music, and usually music is what makes me hate these dances. I think it finally occured to me that when the majority of yourfriends have dates (i don't have a lot of friends so close means around 3 or 4) then where's the fun in dancing with yourself?



To be truthful though the only reason i went was because it's my final highschool year and i figured i should at least make an effort to go to all the dances. In all honesty i think that i had more fun when i went to the ones in grades 9 and 10, mainly because most people didn't have a significant other and i had more friends that i could dance with. The times are changing, and by the looks of it i'm the exception. Not that its a bad thing, i mean, i've always enjoyed my solitude, it's never been an issue with me. I guess if i had wanted to have a good time i would have put more effort into it. You get what you give, and obviously i didn't give enough.....


J-Moose

So It's A Song We Want

So i was visiting another blog i read, and the author, darkaura posted a song, which he wrote himself. It was pretty awesome. So i figured i'd post a song as well. I was originally gonna post a song i wrote on my facebook page, but instead i ended up writing a brand new one.

"The Corner Of Truth And Lies"

And i Was So Afraid of

what this world was doing

I stood in the shadows of

my own regret

And my tears were so cold

i couldn't remember the name

of the world and all its games

they were so.......

So it's really come to this

the world will spin

and i am standing on

the corner of truth and lies

and i'm waiting the day

you realize

i wasn't gonna stay,but

maybe i'll wait a day

it's still the rain that keeps me

at bay.

I look to the stars

and all i see, is the fool i used to be

It's so cold in this old house

the walls are talking and

i can't take it, just one more pill

will make it clear to me

So it's down to one last kiss

and your close you eyes

the worlds still spinning

and i believe that this

is the corner of truth and lies

The world is gone,my life is lost

and sanity has failed

but when i close my eyes

i see the place

where i will always prevail

Thats all for today kids

J-Moose

If I Gave It All Away For One Thing

As some of you may or may not know, i play in my schools band. I'll admit, i'm not that great but i like playing so it doesn't matter. At yesterdays practice, a semi-friend (used to be full friend) started talking to me saying things like "Oh my god, we never see each other any more" "We should really talk more". It's a little upsetting to be hearing things like that because really i had no intention of not talking to this person anymore. You see, last summer when most of you were out having a good time, i was sitting at home bored out of my skull. My so called friends never called me to hang out once, and the one or two times i made the effort to call them, they showed little to no interest in seeing me. I remember i asked one of them if he was interested in coming to a concert with me, sometime in october. His reason for not wanting to come, "I don't know what i'm doing that day". Bullcrap!!! It was july when i asked him, and the concert wasn't until october. Of course you don't know what your doing that day, its not for another 3 months.

How many of you have had something similar happen to you before? You're friends with someone, then 5 minutes later you never rarely talk and you find yourself hanging out with a completely different group of people. It's a sad thing to happen, but i'm pretty sure i'm not the only one who's experienced this before. Hit me with comments, and i'll draft your responses into a new blog......


J-Moose

I knew I'd Be Discussing This Topic Again

A second topic on what you might ask? Love and relationships. I was on missyD's page and she was asking what true love is. I gave a response which in my mind is correct, but i think i'm gonna add a bit more to it.

This is my description of when a boy likes a girl and how he chooses to act upon his feelings, and how the girl (i think) responds:

Boy: His palms are all sweaty, and his beats faster as the moments pass. There she is, the girl of his dreams. She may not be the prettiest or the most popular girl, but his heart can't deny him of his wanting. They've talked before, and the connection is definitely there, but something is holding him back. His nerves always seem to get the best of him, because when he tries to express himself, the words he chooses are never the right ones. But today will be the day. When classes end, he approaches he locker, the words come out perfectly. He studders, of course, but finally manages to ask her out. A date, and a simple one at that. Dinner and a Movie, what could be more classic?

And so the day approaches. The dinner wasn't at some fancy restaurant, but at some place where they could enjoy themselves. He talks to her, discussing school, life, jobs, and their friends. He can't help but look into her eyes, and be lost in them for a few seconds, before realizing he probably looks like a moron doing so. A witty remark and few minutes later, they continue to the theater across the way. He chooses dramedy. Something serious, yet suttle when the moment calls for it. The films not important to him, only the beauty sitting in the seat beside him. His mind is contemplating, his actions. The simple holding of hands, or the arm around her? The answer never reaches his mind, because before he knows it, she's resting her head on his shoulder. He quickly puts his arm around her and smiles triumphantly. The night ends and he takes her home. He doesn't want the night to end, but he knows that it will. They reach her door, and smile at one another. Suddenly, time seems to stop. He leans forward and closes his eyes, hoping she responds. Nothing else matters, except her. And there it is, he finds her. He's waited for so long for this moment and to him, it lasts an eternity. Finally, they part. His face is beat red, as his hers. She leans in and hugs him, whispering softly in his ear "i've been waiting for this"


Girl: For two months he's all thats been on her mind. Her friends always tell her that he's way out of her league, and try to explain how a guy like him works. She ignores it. She knows him better than that. They talk almost everyday, and have a few classes together. To her, he seems like the perfect guy, sweet, charming and cute. What more could she ask for? She begins to put her books into her bag, and begins to relax after a long day. She looks over and see's him approaching. Her mind tells her that he's probably gonna ask about some homework, but her heart wishes for something else. He asks what she's been waiting for, and gladly agrees.

Dinner and a movie, what a perfect first date. She spends hours picking out the perfect outfit, choosing the right makeup, and getting her hair just the way she likes it. She waits and eventually he shows up. They reach their first destination, a quiet little dinner. They talk and she loves hearing his voice. Her eyes gaze into his, and she realizes that he's looking directly into hers. He quickly starts talking and she intently listens. They finish dinner and head over the the movies. A dramedy. Perfect. Her oppurtunity to flirt approaches. The movie starts and as interesting as it is, she wants him to make a move. She notices him slightly move his hand closer to her, but pulls away at the last second. Nerves. How cute. She slowly rests her head upon his shoulder, and feels his arm slip around her. To her, nothing could ever beat this moment. The film ends and he drives her home. They step out of the car, and walk to her door. She smiles, and wonders what he's thinking. She notices his eyes again, and feels compelled to look into them. Then closes her eyes, and leans forward. She doesn't know what to expect, and she doesn't care. But its there, she finds him and they become one for what feels like an eternity. They break apart and she wraps her arms around him and whispers "i've been waiting for this".....

J-Moose

Somebody Gave You A Voice And All You Do Is Abuse It

Today i finally kept a promise that i made to myself when i was 10. While on my lunch hour i bought myself a journal. For 7 years i've had so many thing's i've wanted to put into writing. This blog is a good start, but it's hard to come up with topics everyday to write about. Thus, if i have a journal, i can constantly write down my thoughts, and then when enough has been composed, a new blog will be written. Don't worry though kids, i'm going to update the blog as often as i can and try to do it daily, but being deep and emotional has its limits.

The best writing comes from when have lots on your mind, you feel like crap, and you wanna cry. The first few blogs i wrote represent that. I can honestly say that at this moment i have a few things on my mind, i feel pretty decent, and i definitely don't need to cry. So i'll make another promise to you and myself right now.. I promise that i will always write on this blog and in my journal, even if i have nothing to say. I'm also gonna throw it out there to anyone that wants to write on this blog alongside me. Everyone has something to say, not just me, so heres your oppurtunity. I have made it my personal goal to make this blog something for the people, not just myself anymore. The worlds to big to just focus on myself. So for now, i will write to please my readers and myself....


J-Moose